Lets hope, we glow.

It's not because of insecurities, it is because when someone told you about their past then we'd be lying if we say no we don't care about it, yes we do care of course we care but how we take it - how we digest it - how to not store it in our brain - mindf**ked , that is a difficult thing to do.

It's not because we are entering a new life, yes we'd be lying if we say we never fall in love before , that is definitely a lie because we all went through different stages of life. Everyone went through different kind of things before.Some did this some did that, but eventually we realized what we did before dont matter today. All of those things, those thoughts , those people that were involved, were just the past. Who we talked to, we went out with, who we did with, we ate with, we drank with, who we had long conversations with, we held hands with, we kissed with, we hugged with. Those memories, those pictures, those love and gifts, those hearts, those feelings. No matter what, those people were people who made who we are today. Those people were people that taught us how to love, how to appreciate, how to learn, how to live, how to see, how to hate. For me, I never hated anyone who were in my life before, (well maybe 1 or 2) but because of that one person, I learned alot, I once thought that person was the one who I will spent my life with tapi jodoh tak ada diantara kami so it ended. I never hated that person, I will never hate that person. Thank you for everything but to think back, this is my life now.

So it is definitely not because of insecurities, everything is something that we called - the cycle of life. It's like cycling all over again, it's tiring, it's definitely not fun to do the same thing all over again but ended up with nothing at all, it hurts, it's crazy, it's not something that we want. So eventually, at one point it has to be stopped or not things will go all over again, the funny thing is that we can actually stop it with any of those people that were in our past but mission failed, it's not like we didnt try but things...you know.just happened.

At one point, we have to realize, yes we have to realize, maybe it's time to settle down with what we need to have rather than what we want to have. At one point, it's time to get out of our shells and start to live, be serious, have confidence, building trust, doesnt matter what happened before because today is today. Today is not tomorrow and definitely today is not yesterday.

So how do we build confidence now? How are we going to build the trust? We already have the base, we have the things which we need, we have every damn reasons, we have workers. We just need to prepare two things, team work and the plan. If the first plan fails, we move to the second plan, if second plan fails, we move to the third plan, and so on because numbers are neverending.

That's just it.

That's all, if we want to make it happen then the other person needs to feel the same too.

Because, time matters - everything matters - secret matters - people matter - life matters.

And just like that, thats how the journey should starts.

And just like everyone else in this world, we all go through the same thing. We are all keliru-less, so yeas, it's hard but it's not impossible.

"Kalau ini dikatakan fantasi semata mata,

jadikan lah ia realiti,

kerana realiti itu sebenar-benarnya lebih indah dari fantasi,

dalam dirimu begitu banyak benda yang ku mahu rungkaikan,

kalau diberi beribu pilihan,

diberi beribu soalan,

disertakan dengan beribu jawapan,

hanya satu yang aku mahu tahu,

akan kah kau berada dan terus bernafas dalam hidupku"