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Lets hope, we glow.

2012-01-31T18:43:00.006+08:00

It's not because of insecurities, it is because when someone told you about their past then we'd be lying if we say no we don't care about it, yes we do care of course we care but how we take it - how we digest it - how to not store it in our brain - mindf**ked , that is a difficult thing to do.

It's not because we are entering a new life, yes we'd be lying if we say we never fall in love before , that is definitely a lie because we all went through different stages of life. Everyone went through different kind of things before.Some did this some did that, but eventually we realized what we did before dont matter today. All of those things, those thoughts , those people that were involved, were just the past. Who we talked to, we went out with, who we did with, we ate with, we drank with, who we had long conversations with, we held hands with, we kissed with, we hugged with. Those memories, those pictures, those love and gifts, those hearts, those feelings. No matter what, those people were people who made who we are today. Those people were people that taught us how to love, how to appreciate, how to learn, how to live, how to see, how to hate. For me, I never hated anyone who were in my life before, (well maybe 1 or 2) but because of that one person, I learned alot, I once thought that person was the one who I will spent my life with tapi jodoh tak ada diantara kami so it ended. I never hated that person, I will never hate that person. Thank you for everything but to think back, this is my life now.

So it is definitely not because of insecurities, everything is something that we called - the cycle of life. It's like cycling all over again, it's tiring, it's definitely not fun to do the same thing all over again but ended up with nothing at all, it hurts, it's crazy, it's not something that we want. So eventually, at one point it has to be stopped or not things will go all over again, the funny thing is that we can actually stop it with any of those people that were in our past but mission failed, it's not like we didnt try but things...you know.just happened.

At one point, we have to realize, yes we have to realize, maybe it's time to settle down with what we need to have rather than what we want to have. At one point, it's time to get out of our shells and start to live, be serious, have confidence, building trust, doesnt matter what happened before because today is today. Today is not tomorrow and definitely today is not yesterday.

So how do we build confidence now? How are we going to build the trust? We already have the base, we have the things which we need, we have every damn reasons, we have workers. We just need to prepare two things, team work and the plan. If the first plan fails, we move to the second plan, if second plan fails, we move to the third plan, and so on because numbers are neverending.

That's just it.

That's all, if we want to make it happen then the other person needs to feel the same too.

Because, time matters - everything matters - secret matters - people matter - life matters.

And just like that, thats how the journey should starts.

And just like everyone else in this world, we all go through the same thing. We are all keliru-less, so yeas, it's hard but it's not impossible.

"Kalau ini dikatakan fantasi semata mata,

jadikan lah ia realiti,

kerana realiti itu sebenar-benarnya lebih indah dari fantasi,

dalam dirimu begitu banyak benda yang ku mahu rungkaikan,

kalau diberi beribu pilihan,

diberi beribu soalan,

disertakan dengan beribu jawapan,

hanya satu yang aku mahu tahu,

akan kah kau berada dan terus bernafas dalam hidupku"

High above the earth, into out of space.

2012-01-26T23:07:00.003+08:00

Not everyone has a decent past, not even me, not even you, not everyone.

Some people choose to tell it, some bury it away, some still living in the past, some can't accept what happened in the past, but almost everyone choose to move on.

We can never erase what happened before, that is something that is certain but we can always always always decide what we should do with the present and let the present paints the future.

Kalau kita tahu kita sedar apa kita buat masa dulu, itu bermakna satu perkara yang baik. Susah untuk kita berubah, perubahan itu perlukan suatu impak yang besar tapi hanya kita yang boleh tentukan samada diri kita nak tolak impak tu atau tidak.

Tiba pada satu saat, kita KENA bagitau kat diri kita, sampai bila sebab setiap orang didunia ini diberi berbagai bagai pilihan untuk dibuat. Kita tak tahu bila ajal kita akan tiba, kalau kita tunggu dan tunggu dan tunggu dan tunggu apa kita dapat. Tak dapat apa apa pun. Kadang-kadang benda macam ni perlukan kita fikir jauh, tapi kalau fikir terlampau jauh itu bahaya juga. Jadi apa kita boleh buat, kita doa-minta petunjuk.

Semua orang tak pernah lari dari kesilapan, biasalah benda benda macam ni buat kita belajar selok belok kehidupan, thats just life. If you dont experience things, macam katak bawah tempurung lah. Pilihan buruk kita masa masa dulu yang buatkan kita jumpa pilihan terbaik. Sebab tu apa yang terjadi,segalanya ada hikmahnya sebab kita ni hanya mampu plan,kita cakap kita mampu pandang sejauhnya, tapi kita takkan pernah tahu apa akan jadi dalam saat seterusnya kita hembuskan nafas.Apa apa boleh terjadi.

Kalau kita sedar, Alhamdulillah tapi kalau sedar tapi nak buat lagi susah jugalah. Apa apa yang kita dapat kita hargai sebaiknya, memberi dan menerima seadilnya, hormat satu sama lain, dan paling penting, sentiasa fikir kan positif sebab tak semua benda itu datang dengan pakej keburukan sahaja, tak semua benda itu datang dengan pakej kebaikan juga. Lain orang lain benda lalui, macam mana kita menerima dan mengubahnya lebih penting. Belajar mengenali satu sama lain, walau apapun akan terjadi, just cherish the moment when you are with that someone because we may never know how long it will last. Semuanya tak pasti, semua bukan kekal tapi bersederhana lah :)

Sometimes, we dont plan on meeting that someone or this someone, it just happen just like that.

For example,I never imagine that I would meet someone like that, a person who is just too different from the world that I am living in, still figuring out why what how did it happened but still without any satisfying answer that could satisfy what I really want to know. Maybe sometimes, things are better left unknown, we follow the flow dibekalkan dengan kesungguhan, mungkin akan jumpa jawapan yang sentiasa bermain di fikiran.

Goodnight :)

Here's a thought.

2012-01-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

To someone :

Things that I did , or I wrote or what I typed or what I spoke, was never never ever meant to hurt your feelings maybe what I was trying to say is the other thing but it became the other way around.

Honestly,

I did all that because I am willingly to do that, I dont know why. I was not like this before, but because of you I learn on how to add more sunlight in my life. Because of you, I feel like I'm a new person.

Because of you, I learn to be more open minded regarding things in life. Because of you, I try. I honestly dislike to adapt to new things, I will never ever ever be able to adapt to new things but because you are here today, I am learning everything that I dont know. Because of you, I learn on how to breath the fresh air. Air that I could never imagine I will breath and because of you , I could never imagine what will happen if there's no Because Of You.

I am trying, maybe I tried to express it wrongly . It's really hard to get along with someone, for me it is hard but I hope that it's not impossible when it comes to you.

Money cant buy happiness, that is definitely true but it's good if we can plan on how money can buy us happiness, see, us not me not you but us and I hope you can ride on with me captain! Awak captain saya nakhoda kapal. Ok tak macam tu? Hehe.

So to that someone,

Please work it out together with me, maksud saya, mari kita memandu kapal bersama sama, memandu ke eh? Hehe tapi itulah marilah supaya tak tenggelam macam kapal yang captain dia selamatkan diri dulu tu.

Because to me, you are, someone, that, I, really, care. Always, I would like it to be always so yeas, always :)

It's going to be alright.

2012-01-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

I used to believe that "ah biasalah mula mula semuanya indah, lama lama baru lah nampak belang masing masing, mula lah tu mula lah ni, last-last macam macam jadi, biasalah tu"

Or for example "biasalah mula2 kerja seronok la dpt gaji tu la ni la, lama2 bosan,biasalah tu"

I mean I dont mind using the word "biasalah tu" but depends on what kind of situation. To me I believe that everything depends on how much we want it to be, depends on how much we want to give our best shot to make it happen, depends on how far we want to be happy. It all depends on our hardwork, nothing comes easily if we dont work for it, right?

Sometimes, fate helps us but just that, memang semua di tangan Allah, semua benda ditentukan oleh Allah kita hanya mampu merancang tapi kita juga kena berusaha untuknya. Barulah kita tau memang betul2 benda benda itu semua ditentukan oleh Allah atau tidak. Yang penting berusaha.

To me I believe, it's hard to maintain something, it's hard but it's not impossible :) It requires, us. Bahan-bahan yang diperlukan ada dua sahaja, kita dan berusaha.

Anyway,

Thanks for making me feel 140km/h-160km/h almost everyday :) , some days the pace is a bit faster than the normal pace.

You yes, honestly just you. I don't know if it's just me who is feeling like this, but yeash, just, just,just you thats all :)

Within darkness there's light :)

2012-01-22T00:41:00.003+08:00

Have you ever met someone that is so well connected to you, like even though at times there is something wrong with the signal but still, you can still connect to it.

It feels like you are in a completely different world and that person lives in a completely different world from yours, you and that person dont live in the same atmosphere but don't know why the chemistry is just there. You know that kind of feeling?

You feel at ease, you just feel comfortable, sometimes things can be at tense, sometimes things dont go right but most of the time, it is not too bad. Just better than anything.

I guess different people have different kind of magic within them, maybe 50% fate, 50% working it out.

"Is your favourite colour blue?

Do you always tell the truth?

Do you believe in outerspace?

And im learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?

Does your hair flow sideways?

Did someone took a portion of your heart?

And im learning you

And if you dont mind

Can you tell me

All your hopes and fears

and Everything that you believe in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you

And in time you will too"

January , so far.

2012-01-17T23:40:00.003+08:00

Lets conclude life so far;

- So I have bought a ticket to watch Foo Fighters, I'm going to tumpang my bro in law to Singapore. If there's a will there's a will! (So this one checked) and I am officially broke.

- Cleared NTXA (yes this goddamn product that always always gives me headache) 600 pages(again) with no single MPG error. (Checked)

- Gave Umi & Abah money (Checked)

- Salary, decreasing everyday (Checked)

- Before anything happens, bought clothes (Checked)

- Went to Melaka with Kak Nad & TQ (Checked)

- Convince TQ 100% about FF , (still in progress)

- Convert 300 pages of legislation stuff (OHMAIIII dies)

- Gold Class with TQ (So like a Prince.............)

- Basically thats all, I havent got the chance to eat Banana Leaf / Steamboat :(

So hello January , hello bz month , just hello.

-

2012-01-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

Rindunya rambut lamaaaaa, mengapa saya pergi memotongnyaaaaa.

I will never ever ever cut my hair ever again.

Twenty Twelve!

2012-01-08T00:42:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah,

I am lucky enough to have girl friends who are matured to know what to say and what not to say, when to have fun and when to be serious, when to share happiness and sadness.

I am thankful to have each of everyone of them, no matter where I go or how old I'm going to be each year, will always keep them in my heart yo!

Alhamdulillah juga sekurangnya diri ni boleh melihat,mendengar dan bercakap. Bersyukur dengan apa yang ada :)

But the funny thing is, you're just funny thats all. Maturity level, zero. I can really feel your lack of attention from people around you. All the best and hope that you're living well over there because I dont have time to even care about what you care, haha.

On a sidenote, hello twenty twelve. Please treat me well and I want to be a better person this year, I really have to!

Besides that, yeah your presence, anytime anywhere anyhow :)

These Are The Days

Jamie Cullum

TWENTY ELEVEN.

2011-12-31T18:23:00.002+08:00

2011 is ending soon, through out 2011 I have been through a lot. Like a lot like really a lot.

Ups Downs ah only Allah knows how I truly felt.

But I hope 2012 will be better than 2011, but of course the key to it is to always try and never never never give up eh macam lagu Thomas and Friends.

Alhamdulillah kerana tahun ni dapat diberi banyak peluang untuk menambah benda benda baru dalam hidup dan berubah ke jalan yang betul.

Terima kasih kepada semua yang pernah masuk dan keluar dan masuk dalam hidup saya secara sengaja atau tak sengaja.

I dont know, I am just feeling thankful right now but the journey is still long so lets just keep your head high and move forward!

New year, same thing maybe a little bit different (I hope).

Have you ever met anyone that when they talk you never feel bored talking to them? Theres no 'boring' word in between the conversation.I dont know , I think I am feeling that right now , like I really appreciate when the person talks to me, I appreciate it a lot like seriously a lot.

So okay happy new year! I'll be infront of my laptop and before that a dinner with the duts<3

HAPPY 2012!

Will the world end?

Why it goes.

2011-12-16T22:08:00.002+08:00

You know the feeling of not being able to look at the future at all, like at all?

I dont want to feel that.

I dont want to feel like I wont be able to see the future, even if I dont know what future holds because seriously I dont know what will happen.

But I am just feeling so grateful to Allah for letting me feel whatever that I am feeling right now, maybe there will be time when I will say to myself that I dont want anything else, like really nothing else.

I hope nothing else matters.

String

Young The Giant

$________________________________$

2011-12-10T21:33:00.001+08:00

Nak nangis sebab tak reti saving, macam mana nak saving ni. Perlu kurangkan beli barang-barang tapi masalahnya setengah duit dah pergi kat benda-benda yang perlu dan penting. setengah duit sikit pergi dekat minyak,makan,toll,etc tapi macam mana nak saving?

I want to cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Hole in my face.

2011-12-07T22:08:00.005+08:00

I think,

I like to be at the hospital, a lot. Not as a patient but to be someone that can make people laugh. Maybe I should change my profession from a Production Editor to a clown, since people often say that I am that funny. Well atleast better than no compliment right? I really like to make people laugh, especially to Mika, I will always try to stop him from crying and that involves dancing, face expression, exaggerating drama, anything, things that you will not do for your niece/nephew.

Or a photographer, a travel photographer.I really like photography, well was lah before it turned out to be some hipster movement but I still love it :)

Or someone yang boleh angkat2 barang, try me I can carry boxes and boxes and boxes of heavy stuff. Yes, I dont mind carrying heavy stuff. I really dont mind. Despite that I went through a surgery last time, I have asthma and my heart is not that stable anyway, I have nerves problem, but daripada kemas2 rumah , saya lebih willing angkat2 barang.

Or someone that people can appreciate more but well I dont need to be this but I have become someone who is invincible to words, actions and physical amputation. I can be that someone - when you need me I'll be there, when you dont need me I'll still be there, I dont mind :)

Maybe I just want to become somone that will always make people laugh. When they are stress with works,I want to make them laugh.

Sometimes you dont need to remind people, take a good look at yourself too, feeling good? No right :)

Maybe I just like the hospital, or a place that is far from where I am, or maybe I just like to stay here.

Tide

Tablo

Expiration Date.

2011-12-06T21:42:00.003+08:00

Biarlah pura-pura gembira pun, janji nampak gembira.

Biarlah pura-pura tak marah pun, janji tak marah sesiapa.

Biarlah pura-pura gelak, janji tak buat orang lain gelak sorang-sorang.

Biarlah pura-pura suka buat kelakar, janji tak yah tunjuk-tunjuk rasa depress.

Biarlah pura-pura excited, janji tak buat orang lain kecewa.

Biarlah pura-pura tak kisah, tapi sebenarnya kisah janji tak buat situasi.

Biarlah pura-pura nak makan tu ini, janji tak nampak tak ada selera.

Biarlah pura-pura tak marah, tapi sebenarnya sebab malas nak ckp tu ckp ni. So kalau nak bahan pun okay,takde hal, I'm invincible like reaaaal steeel.

Biarlah pura-pura buat suka tu suka ni, janji tak buat orang2 tanya kenapa tak suka ni kenapa tak suka tu.

Biarlah pura-pura ada masa, tapi sebenarnya tak ada masa janji dpt tolong sapa2 yang nak mintak tolong, nak mintak nasihat ke nak suruh dengar ke, yes I am here I'll try to make time, I always do.

Biarlah pura-pura tak sibuk walau sebenarnya sibuk, janji orang tak ckp bukan bukan.

Bukan maksudnya hidup dalam kepura-puraan, cuma rasa senang hati dapat adakan masa untuk orang-orang.

Biarlah pura-pura tak ada masalah tapi masalah bertimbun-timbun.

Tak yah lah nak bgtau ada problem apa ke problem tu ke, life...what we can do about it, even if we already tried our very best, who knows what we will get. Teruskan doa dan minta petunjuk dari Allah. Kuatkan hati sendiri walaupun susah nak kuatkan hati diri sendiri, tapi hati orang lain tau plak nak kuatkan.

If I could, I would. Escape to somewhere that is really far, and it is happening now in my mind.

I still think, keeping everything aside and inside, is the best that I can do. I dont want to deal with questions, I'll just tell about the happy things, perkara perkara lain selain perkara menggembirakan letak tepi simpan dalam kotak biar je sampai berhabuk, tak ada hal pun mmg selalu pun buat macam ni kalau bagitahu pun lagi melemahkan semangat.

Words? Not everyone is good with it but as long as we know what to say, then I guess it's okay.

and this is from Tablo, waaw great a song that I can really relate myself to:

"Even if I look at the clock

I don’t have time, goodbye now

Even if I look at the calendar

I don’t have any memories now

*I’m afraid I’ll be a book that no one reads

Music that no one listens to anymore

I’m afraid I’ll be abandoned like a movie playing in an empty theater

Even if I look at the phone

I don’t have any relationships now

Even if I look into the mirror

In there, there’s no confidence now"

That is basically it.

We were given so much and we let it go.

2011-12-02T21:20:00.002+08:00

Saying goodbye is hard, I know it's hard. Been there done that but atleast we get the opportunity to say it , we get to say something before it ends.

You know people come and go in our life, nothing remains. People will always come and go in your life whether those are the people that you hate or you love.

I am thankful that I got the chance to meet nice people that have entered my life, at least for awhile. Sometimes I wonder why these nice people have to go, I know they didnt entirely leave me behind but its just that I dont get to see or keep in touch regularly with them anymore. Like suddenly poof, they're not here for you like how they used to be.

The worst thing is that I didnt even get the chance to properly say goodbye and wish them luck personally - you know like face to face. Those people made me feel comfortable and confident, they have helped me alot when life was being mean to me so why I missed the chance to say goodbye and thank you and everything that I should say? Was it because I will cry?

More people will be leaving me behind in the future, I wish that I can say goodbye to them properly.

I know no one will remains but atleast, I want to say goodbye because when people say "dont worry even if Im not here, this is not the end" , because it is the end. when people say "we will still be friends" , no we will not be friends like how we used to. when people say "don't be sad, we will meet up whenever we're free okay" , no because we will never be free anymore. You know that feeling? That leaving means it ends.

So, I hope that I can have the chance to properly say goodbye because no matter how hard it will be I want to say goodbye to those people who will leave me behind in the future.

This feeling, is the worst.

Red Heart

Hey Rosetta!

Re-

2011-12-01T22:08:00.001+08:00

" were you born in water,

a fish so cold?

were you born in autumn,

as the river froze?

cause you shut up

and you're shut in

and i know that

you've got your reasons

but even still, listen:

won't you let your red heart show?

can't you let your red heart show?

were you born a closed book,

full of secret lines? (and bound so tight)

or did you learn to lock it,

as not to break your spine?(oh! you were bound so tight)

cause you shut up

and you're all shut inside

and i wanted to get you smiling

and maybe once in awhile you could try

and maybe let your red heart show"

Hey Rosetta - Red Heart

Doin' just fine, getting along very well.

2011-11-28T00:21:00.001+08:00

Need. Air.

2011-11-27T16:42:00.007+08:00

I had a dress, well, before it was torn and that sucks. To have a torn dress on the night of your office's annual dinner. Not cool right? I know. I think no one noticed it but still, it will rain right right right? (Nyanyi lagu Bruno Mars lagi)

Oh I didnt have a nice birthday too, I can't really tell it here but lets just say, sucks real bad. Tu aje. Biasalah emotional tapi kalau setiap kali pun macam ni, selalu hanya menjadi shadow orang lain. Tak cool jugak. I feel like avoiding myself forever, it'd be great if no one knows my existence , right?

Happy Birthday to me, 22 and still confuse.

Oh about the lucky draw thingy, my number was 72 and I got a kettle! GREAT!!! I shall label it with my name dekat rumah baru nanti.

I will never ever ever want to go to KL on any Saturday night anymore.The traffic jam, ohmai. Biarlah tak cool pun tak pi clubbing semua ke, lepak Subang Parade yang tak cool tu jugak satisfaction.

Lain kali pakai seluar je.

Worry Walks Beside Me

Michael Kiwanuka

Offday Friday.

2011-11-25T12:04:00.006+08:00

Besides working life, family and friends and food,

Nayh not interested in other stuff.

Btw today is my off day, ada benda penting ni malam ni cepat cepat tak sabar saya!

I seriously need to have a good catchup with Running Man / Man Of Honor/ Romance Town. Those make me happy the most!

Ah yesterday 24th November, my colleagues made a surprise lunch for me and Nadrah at Saba' Restaurant since both of us were born in November (November babies rock) BUT yikes this was a happy moment for me, this is my first job and first time experiencing things like these (the birthday celebrations all that with colleagues eventhough everyone is so tensed at work but thanks for being so thoughtful) I appreciate it alot,could not thank them more.

Walaupun semua tidak sama umur tapi , I think my team has the best team members woots! :p

Raja (Team Leader SANZ!) , Azharul , Jane & Kak Siti

Reuben , JC & Aliff

Azzura, Pui Leng, Mathu & Raja.

Chelva, Nadrah.

November babies! Hehe

& I received this from them :

Ohyeah siapa tak suka shopping voucher kan hehe.

Bilik da siap, memang da kene angkat barang barang kalau tak umi mengamuk. And that is a no no haha.

-

2011-11-23T20:09:00.000+08:00

"When we stopped doing the little things, we stopped doing the big things, too, you know, like saying, "I love you." ~Quinn

Terribly Unstable.

2011-11-21T21:25:00.002+08:00

I just want a little bit of appreciation, wait is that correct? Anyhow, I wish , I wish that my efforts , you can appreciate that. Please see that , thats all. If you ask me what would I really want so that I can be really happy right now, right this second. Appreciation.

I dont care if I dont get anything on my birthday but Abah... this does not applies to u okies? Hahaha! I want a stereo set , like home theater set something liddat can can? Ala tak mahal punya , nak letak dalam bilik baru ok plisss thank you ok back to my story, I dont care I dont mind I dont mind at all if I dont get anything well except I would love to get a lucky draw prize during my office's annual dinner (although I am someone with no luck, no luck at all -_-) that could be consider as a birthday gift from my office? Hahaaha.

But truthfully all I ever want , all I really want is An Appreciation. Please thats all!

I dont know, mibbe sometimes I feel its not fair but yeah thats life man.

So much for my Monday Bluessssss!

Where Do I Even Start

Morgan Taylor Read

Yes, please, ignore, this.

2011-11-15T08:42:00.002+08:00

Ah its Tuesday, and I'm blogging at my workspace, it's wrongggggggggggggg ! I cant be possibly blogging at this hour, it's only 8 am!

Just want to post some facts about Saggitarius, no I dont believe in horoscope but sometimes it is true , equivalent to my personality :

#Sagittarius are full of curiosity and they always look forward to the future.

(Yes I have to agree on this)

#Sagittarius don't dwell on hurt because it is a waste of their energy.

(Well...mibbe..sometimes ahaha)

#Sagittarius can be the most big-hearted, generous and fun-loving companions of all.

( I am a boring person, indeed, people keep on rejecting my prescence ahahaha)

#Sagittarius are independent souls who seek a love-mate who is individual, and independent.

(Yes)

If #Sagittarius can't learn how to relax they risk burning themselves out.

(Its hard for me to be relax in a chaotic situation)

#sagitarius are stubborn

(I am)

#Sagittarius is optimistic and positive, even deep inside.

(No, I is not)

#Sagittarius crave excitement but also want the emotional security of a long-term relationship.

(Yeaaaas)

#Sagittarius are basically ambitious and optimistic, and continue to be so even when their hopes are dashed.

(Hmmm, sometimes I can be.. optimist, depends)

#Sagittarius have a positive outlook on life, are full of enterprise, energy, versatility, adventurousness and eagerness.

(Yeah I am capable in angkat barang, pindah barang, or u can bring me as your travel companion)

#Sagittarius are excellent conversationalists with a good sense of humor, sometimes their humor is the raw truth.

(Oh saya memang boleh masuk Maharaja lawak)

13th November 2011.

2011-11-13T21:50:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah,

There's a new addition of Family Member this year ! I is so happy I kenot wait to hold you, sekarang sungguh kekok untuk memegang bayi kecil.

Anyway, here he is :

Ahmad Zharief Ariq :) born on 13th November 2011 , 3.03 Kg. Sihat walafiat Alhamdulillah.

You're going to loveeee your Aunty Jira, hikhikhik ! Because you know why? Because I love McD and I have trained your brother, Mika to eat McD, and you'll be the next one. (Hehehe ok that was a joke) Anyways, so happy for your presence in this world. Syukur Ya Allah.

Banyak lagi gambar, tunggggggggu.

Won't be there to stop the world.

2011-11-12T22:47:00.004+08:00

You know that kind of feeling when you have always been there for others when they need help/when they need someone to hear what they want to talk about/ when they want to share what they feel but when it comes to you, you are easily forgotten? Because when you want to do the same thing, nah forget it, because your side of story is not that important, people dont have time for you.

Sometimes, I do feel that.

Sometimes I really wish others can be there for me too.

Again, lets just keep it inside.

It is better that way :)

Far End of The Black

Jr Richards

You me , falling flat.

2011-11-10T20:25:00.003+08:00

The thing is, what I want to talk about right now right this second right this freakin second is :

WAITING.

That is one dangerous word.

When you wait, sometimes you might have the best luck but not everyone has 'luck' so yeah, you will fall flat, like really flat, like the earth is going against you, (wait,how is that ah whatever it is) WHY WAIT WHEN YOU CAN DO IT!!!! (slaps forehead 1000x)

I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself, dont wait dont wait dont wait sometimes you just need to move first dont wait. Dont freakin wait, from now on Im not going to wait anymore! (wait, NOT GOING TO? Hello Nazira, you're not that someone who can go bold, you are a loserrrrrrrrrrrr)

K BYE.

The things is, I wish you could see me. I think that is what matters now, thats all.

Majik.

2011-11-07T20:45:00.002+08:00

Is there such thing as miracle? I know it is miracle if we make it happen.

I hope that I could be a miracle one day.

But, not everything in this world is possible. Everyone that happens to be in my world has relation or history with each other. That, sucks.

I want to watch the adventure of Tin Tin! If all goes well, Friday night wait for me! I've been longing for you.

Just chillin.

2011-11-06T21:33:00.003+08:00

According to my friends, I always get responses like below :

1) Haney - "KAU APAHAL NASSSS!!U WEIRDDDDDDD"

2) Hanna Faten (Padahal nama kau Fatin Hanna, kan) - "KAU APAHAAAAAAAL, BONGOKKK"

3) Sarah - " WEY KO APAHAL, GELABAH LA KO NIII, APA YANG KO NAK TAKUT SANGAT, *disertakan dengan cara gelak sarah Ihihihihihi*

4) Izzati - "Eh apa uuu niiii *pastu insert gelak* (macam ayat tak habis)"

5) Has has - " Youu jangan cemas sangat ye nas ahucks ahucksssssssss, u ni jelita tau (padahal u pun jelita juga macam I)

6) Naqi - "Eeee Nas niii"

7) Ollie - "Kelakaww kewww tuwwww naziwaaa"

8) Ela - "Ahucks, jangan nak ____ sangat ye najiwaaa"

9) Teah - "Eh makjiraah kita ada gossip ni , eh awak niii"

10) Waniem - "Makjiraaaaaaaaah, ee dia ni"

11) Fatin - "Awak lah awak lah, eeh apa ni kita tak faham"

12) Farah - "(Insert gossip baru)"

13) Paizz - " U niii blurrrr lah, garang pulak tu padan laki lari dari u"

14) Filzah - "U niii blurrr lah, aha aha aha"

Omaaai now I geddit haha. I am such a blur person, cepat panic, not to say I'm a joker but I like to make jokes, yes stupid jokes takdelah sampai slapstick tu, and a garang person and sometimes a CNN too probably because I always get news faster than my friends.

Salam Aidiladha fellow Muslims, I wish that we all could make a sacrifice to Allah and may Allah bless you di dunia dan akhirat. (Teringat cerita kucing kena potong kaki tu :( ) I'm willing to sacrifice my money and time and to stand the smell of cats for my two cats<3

Hello November.

2011-11-01T21:31:00.004+08:00

On rainy day like this, doing surveys can make me happy

(Found these surveys which I did 3 years ago,ahaha)

Are you stubborn?
Well it depends, but most of the time, yes.

The phone rings, what is your ring tone?
Currently using The National ; Mistaken for Strangers & Air France ; No Excuses.

What are the third and eighteenth texts in your phone from?
Maxis , Maxisgift. Yes I'm that, menyedihkan.

What do you usually do first in the morning?
Mengeliat macam biasa lepastu 'lek lu,5 minit lagi' and 5 minutes after that (which exceeds to 15 minutes after that), menggelabah sebab dah lambat pergi kerja.

Favorite drinks?
Ice lemon tea. Everywhere I go.

Orange or apple juice.

Ice lemon tea.

Last thing you ate?
Pasta baked.

Where are you right now?
Floating on earth.

What is one emotion you are feeling right now?

" Am I supposed to have a feeling like this? Someone please tell me."

Who did you hang out with last night?
Myself, cause I'm cool like that.

What are you currently doing?
Wondering on what I should be doing now,

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Nayh.

Do you miss anybody?
I might missing me.

Any plans for tomorrow?
Wake up, Work , Sleep. Probably hoping to bump into someone.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
Lelaki-lelaki di dalam keluarga saya.

Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?
T.O.P? 5ZIC? please?

When is the last time you saw a movie in theaters?
Real Steel, last friday. Yeah usually I spend my friday night alone at the cinema.

What are you doing tonight?
I'm probably gonna hit the bed yoooo.

How has this week been?
Tenang macam dalam air.

Do you have a best friend?
I have bestfriends and I love them to bits.

What's your most hated food?
I dislike ulam, keladi, pucuk pisang, lauk lemak2 but usually I eat anything. You'll never regret if you bring me to buffet dinner, I just dont go for diet! (Please bring me!)

What do you want most right now?
Anything that can make me happy, I need a vacation to Europe or Korea (my trip was canceled because I had to start my work last April :( ) . I want someone to cook delicious food for me . I want money. I want to buy a new headphone set, a good one because I like to listen to music with maximum volume. I want T.O.P or 5zic.

What person do you trust the most?
Those kind of people who will never hesitate to help me whenever I need one.

Are you a morning person or a night person?
I am sad to say that I am a morning person.

Do you remember your dreams?
"Dreams are for fools,they let you down"

When was the last time you were sick?
I have migraine everyday.

MY TOP 10 FAVOURITE FOOD

- McDonalds

- Burger Abang Man depan Esso ss17

- Chillis

- Ayam Penyet

- Indian food

- DimSum

- Spaghetti

- Desserts

- Makanan melayu

- Ice

- Semua.

2) 10 THINGS I LOVE DOING

- Watch Running Man

- Watch Korean Dramas

- Search for good stuff to listen while at work

- 9Gag (currently)

- Sleep

- Eat

- Shopping

- Sleep oh I mentioned that already

- Photography

- Travel

- T.O.P / 5zic

3) 5 types of guys that i adore

- T.O.P

- 5ZiC

-

4) 5 THINGS I LOVE DOING WHEN I'M FEELING DOWN

- Just lay on the bed.

- Drive

- Lay on bed

- Drive

- Eat

5) 5 THINGS I LOVE DOING WHEN I'M HAPPY

- Lay on bed

- Eat

- Shopping

- Drive

- Eat

6) 10 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART

- Seseorang yang boleh membimbing ke jalan agama.

- Tough

- Rough

- Tough

- I dont mind if you're lembut or what not , but the tough comes from your inner not outside. As long as you have the tough-attitude then it's more than fine.Eh pabenda ni hahaha .

- Kemas

- Tak pengotor, yes because I love cleanliness.

- I dont mind if you want to listen to whatever music that you want , but please no Justin Beiber, Rihanna, Westlife, Beyonce or stuff like that. TQ. Rabbani pun takpa.

- T.O.P

- Must have common sense.

- Interested? Please apply. Huahuahuahua

7) MY TOP 5 MOST FAVOURITE JUNK FOOD

- Semua.

8) 5 THINGS I WISH IT COULD HAPPEN SOON

- Mampu untuk membayar habis kereta dengan cepat, saya nak beli Ford Fiesta. (angan angan)

- The official letter.

- No MPG errors

- No stupid emails from editors

- No problem at workplace, please.

9) 10 RIDICULOUS THINGS I WISH TO DO B4 I DIE

- Peluk T.O.P

10) MY TOP 10 RECENTLY MOST ADDICTED SONG

- The National - Exile Vilify

- 5Zic - Beautiful Day

- M.I.B - Who Am I

- Bombay Bicycle Club - You Already Know

- Spoon - Finer Feelings

- Coldplay - Hurts Like Heaven

- Death Cab For Cutie - Stay Young, Go Dancing

- Air France - Collapsing At Your Doorstep

- Boat Club - Memories

- Bon Iver - Hinnom

31/10/2011

2011-10-31T22:59:00.012+08:00

Warning : Photos overload. Its been awhile, apa salahnya floodkan blog sendiri dengan gambar gambar dari October sampai la habis October.

Korean Music Wave dengan Ela, OK I GOT TO SEE TOP WITH MY NAKED EYES, I SAW HIM ! And even though it was quite far ok it was really far but I only went to the concert because of GDTOPSEUNGRI & they only performed 6 songs (not funny), but TOP , I cant explain in words. He was too gorgeous that night, & he is still gorgeous today. Did I just say, gorgeous? Ok change it to Handsome or manly. Ok rough .Ok I'll stop.

Genting Trip(again) with my office colleagues, Team SANZ!

TEAM SANZ! (we have about 10 teams at the office)

And we had a birthday celebration for our bebehs, Haney Muney & Hazweeeen<3

Tepi tu Syamsul Yusof (ala blakon cita Kl Gangster, KL Drift , apa apa KL tu dia punya) , Nora Danish (pelakon suka pakai baju warna warni yang hangat) , Scha Alyahya (Awan Dania la need to explain more? Hahahahaha)

Paling gedik tu Fasha Sandha, Haliza Misbun eh tak Heliza yang Syurga Cinta (has has dia main2 suka tuka nama) , Kak Erma Fatima (director movie baru we olss)

Cake utk budak2 tak matang. Thank you Dolie , cupcakes were nice and delicious!

Patut order ni, Scha alyahya tak habis2 ckp tu burger ramly.

Dysfunctional sisters forevah and evah. Alahai dah besar umur 22 pun nak kena ada party hat. Hahaha.Bila nak membesar ni wey! We olss lah artis malaya tanah air, lupa nak introduce I am tiz zaqyah wakakak.

Then we had a small celebration with our close relatives, for my graduation - Kak Eeja's birthday + Nana Dut's birthday.

5 cucu perempuan je, sikit tak. Nak buat camna sob sob.

Then because we knew that we cant attend Sarah's and my convocation, we had a pre-convo photoshoot and pre-lunch together :)

Thats why I leb my bebehs so much.

Kat padang litna pun bole lahhhhhhhhhh. Tempat lepak masa skolah sampai la dah besar, orang lain dah lepak keluar Subang, hangpa semua lepak subang lagi,taman belakang rumah Aten. Alahai umur berapa ni weyyyy!Sian.

Mika man!

Thanks for coming my bebehs<3

Sadly, there were only 4 of us in all pictures, the rest of my batch will be graduating next year. Hopefully I can attend! :(

Akibat terlampau ramai orang,saya tidak sanggup untuk meredah orang ramai dan hanya mengambil gambar keluarga di bawah pokok -.-

I loveeeeeeeeeeee you Umi and Abah! Thank you , because of you both I managed to complete my degree in 4 years time. Muahhhhhhhhhh. Continue doing Master? Insyallah. Hehe.

Goodbye October, I dont know if I should be happy or no with this October dude here but yeah thank you for everything October! I had fun atleast, but there were a lot of depressing moment, so please treat me well November. My month!

Oh takde gambar pergi octwtfest ke october ke october meet up ke, tak cukup hip untuk pergi tempat2 itu haha. K bye.

It's Thursday,again.

2011-10-27T22:34:00.004+08:00

Ah I cant stop listenin to this :

I think, I think, I think I really like the rough voice, rough. Just rough hahahaha. You know like very kasar one with a very fierce face, and tough, just tough. I really like it! Hahahahahaha.

Just like T.O.P,I think this guy tops everyone. Of course he's T.O.P afterall, he's the roughest among all.

Can you hear his voice? Can you? Pure sexyness, I dont understand a single thing but I can listen to it over and over again. I just died. Homaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai why is he so handsome,how can he even exist? I wonder who'll be the lucky woman that he'll marry one day.

Anyways, yes. Rough or tough ah whichever it is, is such a turn on.Thats all.Hahaha.

On a sidenote :

Everything that I did in the past, some I regret, some I kept but future is infront of me. I've moved on to a better life, I pray to Allah everyday to get guidance from Him especially about living in this world and how to make it to the after-life. I hope there will be more changes from time to time. Maybe there will be, insyAllah.Lets just wait and see.

Airbag.

2011-10-26T21:30:00.003+08:00

Don't know why I really like korean hiphop music, I think probably because the lyrics are meaningful.

I can clearly say korean underground hiphop/rnb is just so tempting! My music preference is just too weird, I can go from Explosions in The Sky - Coldplay - Foo Fighters - Bon Iver - Gold Panda - Air France - The National - Peter Bjorn John - ETC ETC and finally skip some countries, reach Korea . Haha. But the weird thing is, I really really like and can listen to korean hiphop for hours everyday!

Drunken Tiger , Dynamic Duo , Junggigo, Tablo, Mc Mong, Simon D, Leessang oh I do listen to Super Junior / 2PM / Big Bang / TVXQ . Okay hahahhahahahhahaa. I dont know how my ears work but I'm totally fine with it.

What a random post, this is a song from Tablo - Airbag.

I think this korean song has the best lyric

(Translation)

I need an airbag
Before I hit the great sadness that approaches

On nights that I don't want to go home,
The taxi driver only avoids the shortcuts
On the radio, the DJ and the guests who laugh too easily just talk
They don't play music and the conversation gets longer
Usually, I don't like listening to that so I would've asked to change the station
But whatever, there isn't a song that I want to listen to anyway
They keep blabbing so my thoughts are on mute
Laughter bursts from words that I don't pay attention to
Seeing as how even the stone-faced taxi driver starts to laugh
I guess it's a popular saying that is trending these days
Perhaps I'm the only island
Afterwards, someone introduces a requested song
A sad song that I used to really like at one point
I wonder if that person is alone as well
In a place where a long day can rest

* I need an airbag
Before I hit the great sadness that approaches
I need an airbag
It's too late to avoid it

There are so many things to take care of these days
I can't even get properly drunk
But it's not like I avoid drinking sessions
Maybe it's because I don't want to be alone
Or is it because I want it to be obvious that I want to be alone?
Lonliness is a common thing to me
Will I be able to share myself if there was someone by my side?
It's a question mark that I don't want to place at the end
But to my relief, I hear a loud voice on the phone
I guess the taxi driver's plans for drinking have been canceled
He hangs up the phone and grumbles, as if he's mad
My eyes linger on the family photo taped above the meter
I wonder if the reason for this wandering is because
There is no home, or there is nowhere to go
Or is it that there are lots of places to go
But no one to wait for me?

* repeat

I guess I'm all alone again
I guess I'm all alone again
I guess I'm all alone again
Once again (x2)

I'm dangerous right now
I'm dangerous right now
Don't crash into me

I don't know since when it started to fall
But at some point, I look out the window
And as if it's been raining for a while,
There are puddles on the street floor
Reflected in those puddles, I see a neon billboard for car accidents
Right then, why am I remembering you, who is probably doing well right now
Why are tears forming?
The number "1" next to the word "Death:" seems so lonely

* repeat

On this night where I long for you
The rain comes and my heart gets slippery
I need you, yes I need you, my airbag

I guess I'm all alone again
I guess I'm all alone again
I guess I'm all alone again
Once again

I guess I'm all alone again
I guess I'm all alone again
I guess I'm all alone again
Not again

(BTW, I dont drinkkkkkk tqvm)

My Mathematical Mind.

2011-10-22T21:44:00.003+08:00

Hi,again.

Been awhile, I guess the reality is really seperating myself from the internet life. Well uhm not really, I dont really know what I always do after-work. One of my colleague asked me the other day "balik awal harini?" and I answered "Yeah sebab datang awal hahaha" and she asked me again "selalu buat apa bila balik?" then I took sometime to answer that, and I answered "Tak buat apa apa? Kemas baju? Lipat baju? Hehehe" Ohmy, Nazira you need to live a life, seriously live a LIFE. You have a life, so live it!

Well okay, I do live my life properly, maybe because everything is not fun when you do it alone, sometimes you need a support haha to have fun too!

You see, after work I always decide "Ok lets go to the mall!" then I ended up buying nothing, I spend my money mostly on food, thats why I always wonder where does my money go? To.... the food. -.-

But it's really hard for me to save money :( I need a purpose , I need something to push myself to save, well its not that I dont save, but its not a lot like how I should save.

Hopefully, I'll find a way to guide myself.

Working life, is currently calm. I don't know. I often feel sad and guilty to others. I might think about others too much than I think for myself. Its not good but hopefully, I'll find a stable condition one day where everything goes, stable-ly. Its hard but not crazily hard.

Social life, zero.

Family & friends, I thank Allah for giving me great people to be around me.

Oh, I graduated! Wait , I graduated 8 months ago but I just had my convocation so yeah! I'll post up photos soon. As if there are people who want to view it , I know -.- Thank you Umi,Abah,Kak Eeja,Ajoi,Joe, Filly, Faiz, Dolie , Ela , Wanie Anuar for coming, appreciate it a lot! :)

And at WK, my batch is decreasing :( , one of my bestfriend at workplace stopped working there already due to her health problem. I am super sad, she's been a really good listener and adviser despite our 10 years age gap & different race, she has been a really good big sister to me at work. Along ur journey in this life, you'll meet up a lot of diff people, u'll meet good friends and not so good friends. Some may last some may not. Some we will still meet, some will just go on their own ways. Thats, life I guess? And out of 5 , only 3 are left . One of my colleague is gettin married already next year! Yeah, everyone at the workplace is either, married or on the way. Bukan kat workplace je,kawan kawan sekeliling pun sama, sudah mahu kahwin semuanya. Alhamdulillah. Nak cari suami utk dijadikan kekasih ahahahahahahahhahaa ok tak kelakar. Maybe by changing workplace will make me a bit happier hehe but I need to stay here for awhile, atleast.

I think that should be it. Oh best kan bersosial? It sucks to be such a homey person.

Finer Feelings

Spoon

Re.

2011-10-07T21:45:00.002+08:00

There's nothing good about me.

I tried, but then I failed. I wonder who would want to share the blame with me.

I guess, no one would :)

Climb is all we know.

2011-10-06T22:20:00.003+08:00

As much as I dislike listening to whatever that is on the radio, yes but please exlude BFM 89.9! I love that radio station.

Okay back to the para tag, ah see semua coding XML dah dalam kepala, as much as I dislike..sometimes I just hope someone can dedicate Bruno Mars - Count on Me song to me, my days never end. Sometimes I feel like it's a very long day and in the end it never ends.

I just wish that I if , IF ONLY I had more time to do my checkin, if only everyone was not pushing me to go too fast, if only I had more time to do everything. I came early, I went back late but I still feel that it's never ending. I am sad that the fact that I want to improve but time did not give me any chance to do so. I am sad , I am really sad and yes I am sad because I only had 3 days to do everything. That's not cool. Not cool. 3 days = 600 pages? Aih not cool at all :(

Nak convo pun takda mood, semua benda bermain kat kepala. Tido pun confirm tak leh tido. Insomnia je beberapa hari ini but I dont want to give up.

Haih tapi sedihlah, dedicate kan lah lagu Bruno Mars - Count on Me.

" *hello? hello? *bunyi echo dalam gua ditambah dengan bunyi cengkerik krik krik krik* "

- Ye lah dedicate kat diri sendiri je nampaknya.

Towers

Bon Iver

As long as you look faraway.

2011-10-01T00:24:00.003+08:00

Tak faham kenapa selalu jadi macam ni, kadang-kadang masa tengah drive selalu fikir macam-macam for example ;

etc etc etc (sebab setiap kata kata itu adalah doa kan,tapi biarlah apa yang difikirkan Allah je yang tahu)

Well, I like to think a lot and its not a good thing, but I cant help from keeping myself from thinking.

Sometimes,it can be around in my head for several days. Thats why, I like not to know things because it will disturb my mind. When I think , I can't stop it , I cant stop myself from not thinking until I find the solution of the problem. (itu pun kalau ada solution)

In my mind, I often think "what if I'm.." "what if I be..." , and to think I rather be that way than this way is definintely not a good thought of mine. I have to bersyukur and be thankful to Allah for giving me the chance to breath up til today.

Alahai tak nak la jadi watak Fasha Sandha,so lemah. So I have to be strong and whatever happens, I have to keep on being strong because thats how life is testing you. Whether you can take it or nay.

Whether you can drink coffee without sugar if there's no sugar. Whether you can eat a hamburger without the burger. Whether you can drive without a wheel. Ok mind is hovering elsewhere.

& you know, There comes a point where u have to realize that you'll never be good enough for some people, but that's not your problem.

& That moment where you just broke down in tears because you can't handle it anymore.

& We have so many needs in our life, but at the end of the day all we need is to be needed.

but I'm only ;

❒ Single ❒ Taken ✔ Too busy eating my feelings

& Too busy handling my problems alone and having my own fun in my own world... -.- (ok that sounds like Avril Lavigne, ee geli)

/ Teruskan berdoa kepada Allah supaya sentiasa kuatkan hati dan semangat, memang banyak challenges in life but we have to move on & be stronger everyday.

*ok kejap bunyi phone sms, alahai boringnya Maxis ni selalu sangat hanta sms cinta takpun ada msg pasal warehouse sale takpun mms free,thank you Maxis.

*OK KEJAP, NAK CAKAP NI THERE WAS AN EXPLOSION AT EMPIRE SHOPPING MALL,SUBANG JAYA LAST WEDNESDAY, I am sad because I always go there atleast once a week but thats like my what,third home? yes second goes to Subang Parade. Third home yo, all of my fav kedai makan were gone, maybe they will be back in few months time but it was too tragic because the next day (which was yesterday, Empire was supposed to celebrate their 1st year anniversary) it was too tragic lah, but there were no casualties only 4 people were injured, but still Dorothy Perkins/ Peacocks/Charles&Keith/ Aino Kitchen Houseware/ Toys R Us/ TANGS/Vanilla Place/ Serai / Pasta Zanmai/ Chilis...... I am indeed sad of what had happened to Empire but I am thankful to Allah that it didnt happen during daytime,what if? I cant imagine..it was like a ticking bomb - suspected gas leakage. I hope Empire will regain back its original look and back to normal. I hope everything will be fine :( but I am sad because it happened in Subang Jaya, my hometown :(

Oh mula mula bila fikir Empire meletup,fikir satu je, pets kat petsmore tu..... alhamdulillah telah diselamatkan.

Read further here :

http://blog.galvintan.com/aftermath-of-the-empire-shopping-gallery-explosion/

http://blog.galvintan.com/explosion-at-empire-shopping-gallery/

Why do I always write a post without a theme, or maybe it does look like a theme but it's not.

Mistaken for Strangers

The National

I need the darkness, someone please cut the lights.

2011-09-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

I'll be graduating on this 10th October 2011, like finally. Been waiting for my convocation day since what,February? but I don't really feel excited about it but anyway I'm just going to enjoy it I guess.

I'm thankful that I got a job after I graduated,now what I need to do is to work hard to secure my place or not I'll kena chop chop off haha, well thats how scary working life is. You must and you NEED to impress everyone, bukan nya impress pakai baju lawa lawa ye semua, impress as in giving all u can and prove that you deserve to work there.

Alright anyway,

Why do I always think that I'm lack in social skill, jeez I can't even talk properly to strangers -.- I will always end up embarassing myself -.- . And my internet life? Not that awesome anyway , so what do I do daily? Ah sad but true, I work - I eat - I sleep - I shop..ONLINE - I like to go berjalan alone yes that includes menonton wayang sendirian,kini Parade dah ada MBO senang la nak tgk wayang sorang2 - I watch kdrama - Ah probably that is all?

Macam mana nak cari calon suami ni eh tak macam mana nak cari kehidupan ni.

Okay nak tido.SEE , not progressive at all -.-

I'm a lone ranger, I'm not lonely, I'm just alone and I am perfectly fine :) I guess?

Sprawl II

Arcade Fire

Time to Wander

2011-09-14T21:21:00.002+08:00

Hi,

A lot of things are happening right now, I clearly cant say what is what or which is which or who is who but what I do know is that, when you are given a responsibility to do something ; EITHER you do it no no, not do it. but die trying or you just quit. You must not give others hope if you think you cant make it happen. Or if you choose to do it , no matter how hard it is - remember that you must always try even if its hard , you must try to complete it , no matter what the result will be but the matter of fact that you yourself know that you're already die trying.

Well thats what I've learnt so far, I'm still learning the concept of die trying.

Life is hard , nothing is easy but if you try to make it easier for you to live , then why not ?

I am not someone who is good with goodbye, I easily shed tears even I dont show it , I can clearly say that I'm that kind of person who will just keep quiet and maybe, shed tears alone. I am not good when it comes to departing / or drifting . But I always hope that , whoever that is departing away from me I always hope that you guys will be happy no matter where you are , with whoever you want to be , on what state , just live life like how you should be living it.

I may not be the best person to say goodbye like "omg your leaving im so sad!" I am not always good with words , but I hope you can read my face expression.

All the best and goodluck in whatever you're doing :)

- Berdoa supaya semuanya berjalan lancar, Ya Allah ampuni la hambaMu yang selalu punya salah silap sini sana.

"Remember me? I was once important to you." - Marc A.Anicas

Demons

Fenech-Soler

Bekerja.

2011-09-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

I know I should not complain but sometimes working life can be really really really hectic, there are about 13 of us in a team and we work with editors who are not in Malaysia. Have to work at a really fast pace and that means = staying late or do whatever you can do to finish it on time so that others can start workin on it.

Macam lari pass pass baton,lambat habis ah.

Mengapalah kerja itu susah sob sob tak bole ke kerja tu senang sikit eh ish kena bersyukur, apa nak jadi ni Nazira.

Bersyukur la!

Haih,mari la kuatkan semangat.

Bekerja mmg betul betul buat saya jauh dari dunia luar, dah isolated. Tahu perkembangan dunia luar dengan twitter je.

Haih!

Thats where Im going...no..really?

2011-09-03T19:01:00.002+08:00

Dah la kain buruk lepastu kena carik carik lagi pulak tu, haih apa lah nasib badan. Dugaan di merata rata tempat, berdoa supaya atleast, ada sikit cahaya disebalik kegelapan ini.

Haih why did the error took place anyway! Like seriously I mean everyone did the checkin, I have lost all my mood for everything.

Thats why I hate it when things happen because of me , I will feel so deeply affected by all of these.

I will feel bad for the rest of the month , and it will affect the promotion also.

I guess in few months time, I have to start googling for stuff that I am good at...atleast.

Why.

When it's all over I'll let you know.

2011-08-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

Why did I stop liking all of my favourite past time?

Like ;

Watching Football every Saturday/Sunday night and shout like a maniac.

Photography

Finding new places to eat

Shopping (eh this one is considered as favourite wasting money time)

Go on a drive

I have lost my interest. I don't know why . How to regain it back, it's not possible. Luckily I still have one fav past time left, which is watching k-drama , k-show and k k k guys. And that's just it.

Is it because working life is tiring therefore I dont have time to do my activities?

Maybe, I am always like this.

"When faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back. But once in a while, people push on to something better." ~LS

"What's more important... what we become, or how we become it?" ~Lucas Scott

If I Ever Feel Better

Phoenix

K Report.

2011-08-27T22:42:00.002+08:00

Bila tengok Protect The Boss ni tiba tiba buat diri rasa nak jadi PA pulak,macam best je kerja dia. Eh macam la bukan nak jadi pun.

Kenapa semua cerita Korea ni best, tatau kenapa tapi bila tengok rasa macam bestnya. Sungguh pandai pengarahnya mencipta plot yang bole membuatkan perempuan seperti saya ini tak bangun dari kerusi dan kenapa mereka sungguh kacak. Adakah lelaki kacak yang mempunyai personaliti menarik seperti dalam K-Drama ni betul betul wujud?

Nah,I dont think so.

For example;

Lee Seunggi in Brilliant Legacy - Anak orang kaya yang kurang ajar tapi last last berubah menjadi seorang yang baik budi pekertinya setelah mengenali kehidupan dan mengenali seorang perempuan yang dahulunya kaya tapi jadi miskin. (Ini watak paling best kot) Takdelah hensem pun dia tapi ah pandainya berlakon. Tapi luar cerita mmg seorang yang pandai dan baik pun.

Gong Chan in My Girl - Ok ni suka gila sebab dia sangat handsome. Itu je.

Choi Daniel in Babyfaced Beauty - Seorang yang biasa biasa je walaupun kaya tapi tak tunjuk pun dia kaya,lepastu dia suka perempuan 10 tahun lagi tua dalam cerita tu. Pastu dia baik, kelakar dan suka bagi semangat kat perempuan tu. See,moral support.

Han Kang in 49 Days - Dia suka kat kawan baik dia masa sekolah lepastu dah tak kawan lepastu tiba tiba kawan lelaki dia nak kawin dengan kawan baik masa sekolah tu. Which sebenarnya kawan lelaki dia tu jahat gila sebab nak kawin sebab duit keluarga kawan baik masa sekolah tu. Kawan baik dia accident,then ah camtu la cerita dia.Dia tolong kawan baik dia tu semua, protective gila sebab tanak kawan lelaki dia rampas harta. Tolong sebanyak mungkin,architect dan pemilik kedai makan yang down to earth. AH paling lelaki idaman ialah,watak Han Kang.

Ji Sung & Jae Joong in Protect The Boss - Ji Sung sebab dia suka secretary dia,lepastu Jisung ni ahjussi dan baik dan kelakar gila, betul betul ikhlas suka secretary dia,cuba sedaya upaya untuk suka secretary dia (kenapa kat luar macam takda) , Jae Joong sebab dia mmg kacak dan kacak dan kacak dan super kacak dan kacak lagi.

Rain in Full House - Yeah sapa tak suka dia mmg tipu . Haha . Sebab dia sungguh best dalam Full House.

But conclusion - I like Han Kang the most , I wonder if there's anyone like him in real world which I really dont think , exist . He's not that handsome but he's handsome based on his personality , supportive and protective , a leader , and awesome character , like almost flawless.

You know like a real man.

Be M.

2011-08-27T12:50:00.002+08:00

I think I should feel proud...well abit... with myself. I might not be the best person to describe myself, but I'm glad that I am quite a penyabar person. I dont know if this is my weakness or no but I like to keep things inside, because I know if I blurt it out things will become messier and messier and it's hard to regain consciousness after that. So when things happen, I prefer to keep it inside though I know it will hurt myself but.

But biasalah, I'm that kind of person who prefers to stay out of trouble, I'm not bold I know that .

Macam mana nak cakap ah? Senang cerita malas lah. I'm that kind of person who knows the real truth, but I prefer to digest whatever been said to me. Bukan menurut apa orang lain cakap, tapi diam itu sebenarnya lagi bagus sebab tak sakitkan hati sendiri. Bila tahu benda betul , I just smile and think positively that nah, I know whats right or whats no . If I dont know then I ask you ok?

Paling benci bila , orang tu buat buat tahu tapi sebenarnya tak tahu apa-apa. Semua benda dia je betul tapi minta cadangan, bila bagi cadangan suka bash orang lain punya idea. I know u have live longer than me but that doesnt mean I dont know about the real world.

Furthermore, my world doesnt revolves around you. The world doesnt revolves around you alone.

You think you're the only person who is wise enough issit. Sebab tu la malas nak ambil kisah, so just digest je, bak kata orang masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri.

Senang,takda sakit hati,hidup dengan gembira sekali dengan hanya memikirkan masalah yang dialami diri sendiri.

Please just leave me alone, I am fine.

2011-08-27T00:38:00.002+08:00

Ah benci bila tersekat dengan situasi yang tidak boleh dikawal eh sebenarnya boleh kawal tapi memang macam " why do I have to get through this, ah why again why?" I mean. I really dont understand when we say no,others will take it lightly like "ala no ke no ke?" I really hate it when I have to deal with these kind of people who dont understand the meaning of no. Or do you want me to explain it to you straight to yaaa face, but no, I dont even want to look at your face and explain it because it'll waste my time.

I really dont have time for this , I am perfectly fine . Like really fine, so I'd appreciate it if you try to leave me alone. eh bukan try , you have to leave me alone.

No I'm not nice, maybe I might look nice , but no I'm not . I am a very ignorant person, when I dont like something it will remains that way forever. I am that kind of person who just cant be nice to people who dont respect my space.

What You Know

Two Door Cinema Club

Haters will always hate.

2011-08-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

You know what really pissed me off?

When people doubt those who like this or like that, lets take it for example;

"Why do you like that stupid k-pop,mesti sebab laki hensem,tah pape"

You know what is the best answer to that question?

- Yes,because they're handsome. No doubt yo thats why I like em!

"What do you understand about kpop anyway!?"

- Because I dont really have to answer that question, it involves my happiness and not yours so if you're not happy if there are people who like kpop, do we have to care? Seriously ? Why should we care if you're happy or no as long as we're happy. Kau tanak happy suka hati kau lah , tak ada siapa kisah pun?

"Stupid dance move"

- If they dance stupidly,then the youtube views wont be reaching til 50 million views + 100k likes. Still want to argue? (:

Ah the basic thing is , when you say "Dont be hypocrite , don't judge others" You're actually doing that, do you even realize that ? It's funny we're all the same kan.

Its the same thing if we question "Stupid thrash metal song, stupid football, stupid F1, stupid goodlooking models" dah tentu ada yang akan cakap "atleast better than kpop" then what makes it better than the other one ? "the screaming? the rebut rebut satu bola for 90 minutes? the ugly looking long legs? the lousy engine?" sama je , so dont question about what others like or no.

Seriously shallow minded people, it's really time to grow up. It's 2011 already and you're living like in 1990 century.

Being judgmental wont get you anywhere yo, sebab tu orang kata walaupun kau belajar tinggi2 tapi otak tu takda fungsi juga. Sebab benda kehidupan pun kau tak bole nak belajar.

Jadi,kalau nak jadi judgmental jadi lah selama lamanya. Haters will always hate kan, sapa nak halang. Cuma you cant control others, its not fair to do that to others. Like,be more rational.

Macam kau tengah kutuk orang pakai Proton kau pakai Perodua,Proton lagi elok dari Perodua. What makes it better than ? Everything in this world has its flawless and awesomeness. Then kau kutuk Pavillion tu best Subang Parade loser, ok fine if you dont like Subang Parade but seriously there are people who like Subang Parade and thats why dia dah exist for 20 years. Tak baik nak banding bandingkan orang lain sebab orang yang suka buat camtu adalah orang yang tak pernah puas hati dengan diri dia sendiri. Takda kerja kot.

Ok bye.

Sometimes I cry, I cry cry cry.

2011-08-21T01:04:00.008+08:00

Finally I have the chance to update my blog,ok bukan lah ada chance, before this pun boleh je nak buka but ah u know I really dont know what to put up in here and I dont want to leave it empty either.Ramadhan is ending like real soon, tinggal seminggu je so hows everyone doing yo? Been doing fine?Moga Ramadhan kali ni dapat mengubah kita dari pelbagai perspektif,insyAllah.

I really don't have anything much to say, I only had my iftar with my friends 3 times .One is with my bebehs; Aney-Aten-Atea-Arah-Aryn & special guest Fathihah. then I had my second iftar with my MMU friends and the third iftar was with my office mates.And next week insyAllah the 4th and last iftar with my friends; filly and paiz.

Last year I went quite of number of times to Terawikh, but this year I don't know why nak pergi je tapi penat,pergi pun beberapa kali je :( , penat gila balik kerja terus flat tak larat nak bangun langsung. Lepas berbuka puasa terus kemas all the dishes,house chores and totally flat.Surau kat sini pun ada tazkirah for 30 mins. Hmmmmmm.

Hmm anyway,I really dont have any preparations for Raya,except been buying baju raya but dont know for what purpose? Hopefully I'll wear those baju raya that I bought, taun ni rasa beli baju raya sendiri ha rasakan kemahal-annya haha. Haih habis duit,bukan habis duit tapi tak suka bila duit berkurang :( Macam macam kena spend on semenjak kerja ni sob sob. Tapi tanggungjawab memberi duit kepada Umi and Abah haruslah disempurnakan. Tahun ni juga first time bayar zakat! :D Alhamdulillah.

The suckiest thing is that clearance will be on 2nd September, I have finished composing my part but I hope the indexer from New Zealand will give feedback at least by next week ! Have to clear one week earlier, berdoa banyak2 supaya dapat clear on Friday. Tanak raya kat office.Oh cakap pasal indexer,there's this handsome indexer at my office. Eh ok I dont want to sound like a crazy stalker, because every time I tell about this everyone likes to think I'm a stalker. Well if I'm a crazy stalker I sudah pergi turun level 3 hari2 lalu tempat dia. But nah I'm not like that, anyway he's a new indexer, so handsome! Heart pumps 100x faster than normal beat everytime I see him. He looks like TOP from Big Bang. No I'm not kidding because my colleague also said the same thing ! See, he's handsome and he has a red hair bila jalan bawah matahari sebab haritu ternampak dia jalan. He wears croc shoes the canvas shoes for god knows why, well it's a bit weird. He always looks like a CIA agent on every Monday, because he'll be like all black. And oh when he wears the baju kotak kotak , thats when he's most handsome. Oh anyway, I only know up until there!Well,there's no possibility of communication between us so I'm going to just see you from afar and pretended that you don't realize that I realize you. So yeah. Boo to diri sendiri.

Okay, I'm going to stop rambling and get my good rest.See you in weeks time?
"If loneliness means happiness then I'm the happiest person on earth" (:I like it this way, easier, better , stress-less , and happier because sometimes others just don't realize and others just don't know how to unveil the feeling that we're having so yeah it's easier.I dont want to be the person whos only incharge to remind others, sometimes I want to be reminded too even if I know.

Blind

Junggijo

Ramadhan Tahun Ini.

2011-08-02T21:23:00.002+08:00

Day 1
Day 2

Salam Ramadhan kepada semua umat Islam,moga Ramadhan kali ini lebih diberkati.
Syukur dilanjutkan lagi satu tahun hidup untuk menjalani ibadah puasa.

Lain sikit tahun ni,sedih tak terkata sebab...

Tahun ni berpuasa di rumah bukan rumah Subang Jaya ;( , rindu pasar ramadhan ss14 dari kecik pergi sampai besar. Tahun ni nak pergi ss14 kena pi weekend aje.
Tapi tahun ni dapat buka puasa satu family! Yahoooo, sebab semua dah duduk dekat-dekat :p

Figured Me Out.

2011-07-24T00:02:00.003+08:00

Life can be tough, its like whether we can take it or no, drop the bomb.
For me,there are times when life can be really really tough and sometimes its hard to bear with it,my eyes will be bursting in tears like gazillion of water just poof,cannot stop flowing.
Its hard to deal with matters when you have to face it alone, but actually its not that hard and its even easier to deal with those probs alone.
People say dont keep everything inside, but for me to make myself feel fine, I like - I tend to keep everything inside. Its always easier that way, not because I really want to hold it up inside but because maybe I prefer not to.
Lepastu padan muka sendiri kena.Hehe.

I want to describe myself,
I am plain, and that is all. Thank you.

Maybe I'll Enjoy It Next Year
Hamel

Come in from the cold.

2011-07-19T22:20:00.003+08:00

Sometimes , no no not sometimes.
Most of the time you can never never never expect because expectation leads to disappointment, and what happens if you become disappointed? You will become sad and so disappointment leads to sadness.
But up til the point of disappointment, you can choose your path whether you want to be sad or you try not to be sad.
You see, when we are disappointed, we tend to lose our mind for awhile, like an electric shock or like you've been hit by a bus,why bus? I dont know.
But disappointment makes you think of things that are not worth your time. In life,we have to chase a lot of things,like really you cant count it. So why bother being stuck at one place while you can actually do something else?
It's not like you can't be sad, YOU CAN be sad , ada ke manusia yang tak pernah sedih? Tipu lah kalau takda. But you can choose on how long you want to be sad.

So yeah, for me recently I reached at this pit stop, and the signboard stated "You can either go straight or you can turn left" I waited for awhile,you know just like wanted to check out on something but after awhile, although I was disappointed which I know I shouldnt , I made up my mind to go straight.
I'm currently on my way to dont know where , but yeah I'm going straight, the road is not exactly straight, ada bukit bukit ada belok belok selekoh tajam , selekoh tak tajam , but I'm driving at my own pace.

You can't expect for everyone to understand you, sudah more than bersyukur if they know roughly what you've been up to but you can never force others to understand you. Thats why sometimes, we need to find our own way, use map , use mind , use experience , use common sense and what you know. Others have things to do too, you'll ride along with them but they have their own missions and we have our own missions. So just stay calm :)

Although my pace is a bit slow, and its hard for others to slow down and to follow my pace , but I'm trying to speed up, atleast driving at normal pace as anybody else.Slowly I'll reach my destination but note to self/others ; world can be a cruel cruel place to live, no its not the world, but the route that we're taking, it can be rough, it can be smooth, it can be messy and sometimes, it can be very lonely too.

Blue in Green
Miles Davis

Ripped.

2011-07-14T21:57:00.003+08:00

Rally haritu tak boleh beat jem yang ini haha. I miss doing photography, last time it was like a "i-cant-let-you-go-baby-tamron" now , seriously I dont know what I love to do anymore. Beside shopping and eating. I think.. that should be it? Such an unprogressive life I have.

And I no longer have this long hair , anymore :( I chopped it off this year,sobbbbbbs. What phase of life that you're currently entering Nazira!

You're a boring person.Booooo! I think my bed is calling me already.Booooo!

"When these sails go up, mountains fade away
Stars come out, I’m finally free
Now it’s only the ocean and me"

Only The Ocean
Jack Johnson

Such a long line to get off from here.

2011-07-13T14:37:00.002+08:00

Tak payah nak gelakkan orang yang makan aiskrim sorang-sorang sangatlah. As if tak pernah nampak orang lepak sorang-sorang. Apa ada hal? Duduk dalam gua lagi ke.

Eh tetiba pula saya marah. Saya bukan marah,sebab tak guna marah dengan orang yang mentaliti sempit. Anyways.

Here comes the 3rd day of bad week. Work-less. Tak ada kerja = SEDIHNYA. I need work,I need to do something but I can't do anything,not til next week. Nanti kena cari senior dan buat muka "i-need-work-do-you-have-anything-extra-for-me-to-do-I-promise-I-wont-create-any-chaos-after-this"

Rasa macam bodo bila create chaos kat office, it was one of the worst day in my life yesterday!

But with the help from my colleagues, I got up and smile again today. And yes,now I'm work-less, ramai yang takdak kerja harini. Perasaan bersalah melayari laman web itu memang ada,tapi apa mau buat. Cari makan memang susah maaaaaaaa,kena melayari internet bagi mengatasi "bimbo-moment" pandang screen pc waiting for something that will never come.

Haveeeeeeee a good week,people. I might need to hit the cinema again this week,gaji is coming out soooooon and I want to pamper myself.Pamper kepala anda,Nazira. Saving itu penting. Tapi saya harus shopping dan makan. :)

" Such a long line to get off from here,I guess I got time more than anything else"

Prescription

Peasant

low.low.low.

2011-07-12T10:22:00.001+08:00

here comes the lowest part of my working life.

very,very,very low.

I want to crrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry but theres no place to cry here.

Kita kerdil sahaja.

2011-07-11T21:29:00.005+08:00

So, the rally is over ? But I guess it's not really over.
I as a citizen,I decided not to join the rally,why? Because I chose not to. Semua orang ada hak untuk katakan tidak kepada sesuatu kan so dont go on and label people who didnt join, orang yang tak sayang negara.Not because I don't love my country,I've been living here since I was a baby so kenapa pula saya tak sayang kat negara saya?
Tapi siapa saya untuk mengalami semua pengalaman hidup bila umur saya baru 21 tahun.
And as for the rally, I'm not supporting it either.Why ? Because I chose not to . But does that means I'm being biased towards this or that. No.
Saya tak pergi rally so saya tak boleh nak describe macam mana keadaan sebenar rally itu, saya hanya menonton video di youtube tapi tidak mengjudge apa-apa.
I'm not a politician,politic is a very dirty dirty thing to talk about.
I want to register as a voter , but where's my right if this side tak betul,that side that betul. Which side should I choose even if it is a free and fair election.
Suara rakyat,yes, the govt must listen to the rakyat, if you wanna build a house you need to gather the materials right,what if you dont have enough materials to build it,hows the structure is going to be?
I'm just mad that this rally tiba tiba dipolitikkan oleh sesetengah pihak, so wheres our right to judge whether this thing is wrong or right ?
Apparently,I watched a video,about "the truth that is not covered" or something like that, I dont feel any politic sentiment in THAT VIDEO, its all about human rights, why were you being so violence to the rakyats,where's the justice? Are you human enough? I dont know what happened at the rally, seriously I dont' know but when I watched the video, I feel sad that rakyats were treated badly.
Maybe some will say polices were just doing their jobs,to what? Protecting the country or protecting the rakyats?
Its not suppose to be this way, it should be held peacefully in a stadium then polices can jaga all the pintu masuk and let them speak peacefully but that did not happen.
I feel sad,not because of what happened, but I feel sad, that certain people mempolitikkan benda ini. Ada yang cakap banyak tapi buat tak ada. Ada yang pergi tanpa hala tuju.Certain lah bukan semua.
Semua orang ada baik dan buruk,kalau takda subsidi agak2 kita susah ke senang? Kalau takda pinjaman pelajaran,agak2 kita susah ke senang? Kalau takda orang tar jalan,agak2 kita bole bawak kereta baru kita bersertakan sport rim yang cantik cun melecun dengan lancar ke tidak?
Ada salah silap itu pasti adat manusia,setiap orang ada keburukan dan kebaikan. Itulah perihal manusia dengan dunia.
I feel sad that some people mungkin ada dapat D atau F untuk sejarah yang tak tahu asal usul Malaya tu macam mana. Saya bukan lah pandai sejarah tapi saya tahu asal usul Malaya tu dari mana. Its not about being racist,jangan cakap saya cakap pasal race ke apa ke sebab saya banyak kawan dari pelbagai kaum yang bersependapat,kami kawan baik,kami lunch sama-sama,pergi team outing sama-sama,susah susah bersama, saya tahu bekerja dan berkawan dengan kawan pelbagai bangsa macam mana. Saya bersyukur dipertemukan dengan kawan-kawan berbilang kaum yang panjang akal,pandang jauh kedepan,tidak cetek fikiran,cool,relaks, respect orang lain, dan mereka juga faham Malaysia itu apa.
Tapi untuk mempertikaikan,kenapa pemimpin negara Malaysia hanya orang Melayu, man you should read your sejarah and go back to school. Jadi,siapa yang racist kat sini?
I chose not too choose. Does that make me a bad person? Why should I take side of people who like to argue about whose more powerful whose not,who should be the leader who should just sit down? When nothing is being done. No one ever did anyting...except...

Those who never take side and speak for the rights.
Hari sabtu saya buat kesimpulan saya sendiri,sendiri. Setiap orang ada kebebasan bersuara kan?
Bukan govt , bukan opp ,
Tapi mereka yang tidak mengambil mana mana side dan memilih hak mereka yang betul.
Dengan tujuan bukan niat nak mengulingkan,sebab ada yang pergi tu berniat nak mengulingkan, guling2 tenggiling ok not funny.
Tapi tujuan menyedarkan semua orang yang kita perlukan kepimpinan yang berkebolehan dan civilized dan bukan hanya pikir wang besar wang besar,pangkat besar,kereta besar,semuanya besar.Tapi otak ikan lebih besar.
Jadi sekarang,seperti ada 3 sides,betul ke tidak?
Mungkin ada orang baru di muka politik pada masa akan datang,we never know.

Tapi Institusi Raja-raja Melayu haruslah dihormati dan tidak dipertikaikan.
Hak agama masing-masing haruslah dijaga.
Jangan berdengki bila ada kuota bumiputera dan bukan bumiputera.
Jujur dan hormati orang lain.
Tidak racist.

Itulah pemimpin yang kebanyakkan kita mahu.

Daulat Tuanku.

Why should I join the rally ?
Dont just follow the trend because everyone else is joining, atleast tanam lah knowledge dalam minda sebelum berkata kata.
Assalamulaikum.
I might lack of words,but I want to speak from my mind too.
"Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone else's opinions, their lives a mimicry, their passions a quotation" - Oscar Wilde
&
"Jangan tanya apa Negara bakti pada kita,tanya diri sendiri,apa bakti kita pada Negara " - PakcikTiadaNamaDepanSogo.
&
Kalau dinilai dosa kita dibandingkan dengan wang kita miliki. Kita miskin sangat,tahu tak?

v 2.7.

2011-07-07T09:10:00.004+08:00

So I think Malaysia has been too chaotic for these past few months,no?

First ; Was the acidman attack , and then suddenly acidman was no longer the trend.He's like poof,gone. No one talks about him anymore , it's like he never existed.

Second ; The cyber attack , yes , hackers . The funny thing was , everyone was mad as hell about the sites blocking etc but funny thing was , it lasted for a week only. After that,there were no more news about hackers nak hack ni la tu la ni la.

Third ; Everyone knows about the rally, I guess the trend this time should be "Yellow,2.0,bersih,Patriot,Merah,Etc Etc" . It's like Malaysia kena "bomb" banyak banyak kali oleh trend yang pelbagai ni.

Fourth ; I think the bersih's trend dah over, lasted for about what , 3-4 days? You know sekarang apa yang trend? ROADBLOCKS. Malaysia ni seronok kan , hari hari ada benda terjadi.

Orang yang malas nak amik kisah tiba tiba terlibat secara tidak langsung. Sebenarnya bukan malas nak amik tapi macam "cmon,kita ada benda lebih penting nak buat,cari nafkah untuk hidup,campak kat mana mana pun,semua benda pun still sama juga"

Tapi kebanyakkan benda yang terjadi menyusahkan semua orang.

It's so funny we can fight about stuff that sounds not too important , we can like fight for "WE WANT ACIDMAN TO BE JAILED" or "HACKERS PLEASE JUST REVEAL YOUR IDENTITY / WE DONT WANT HACKERS" or "STOP TROUBLING OTHERS"

The funny thing is , seems like we've been forced to choose between Coffee and Tea. But we like Choco Cino instead. How to choose then?

Because in the end , there are people who are stuck in the middle of these arguments, dont you think? It's not fair,really.For people who are stuck in the middle like,some of us.

Do you think we only talk about Coffee all the time ? Besides coffee, there are more important things to talk about like how to make a cup of coffee,ingredients needed,how much,is it expensive, biscuits.

I wish Cyberjaya is a country , it's just so peaceful here , people dont talk about each other , we do our own stuff , we're friends no matter what color/races we are. Doesnt matter if we're foreigners or no . Doesnt matter if that person drives this or drives that . Or eventhough our roles in life are different,we are still friends.

You know?

Sure seems the same
Too many different names
Our hearts are strong, our hands are weak
We'll always be competing never knowing

Never knowing
Shocking but we're nothing
We're just moments
We're clever but we're clueless
We're just human
Amusing, confusing
But the truth is all we got is questions
We'll never know

Never Know

Jack Johnson

v 2.7.

2011-07-07T09:10:00.002+08:00

So I think Malaysia has been too chaotic for these past few months,no?

First ; Was the acidman attack , and then suddenly acidman was no longer the trend.He's like poof,gone. No one talks about him anymore , it's like he never existed.

Third ; Everyone knows about the rally, I guess the trend this time should be "Yellow,2.0,bersih" . It's like Malaysia kena "bomb" banyak banyak kali oleh trend yang pelbagai ni.

Fourth ; I think the bersih's trend dah over, lasted for about what , 3-4 days? You know sekarang apa yang trend? ROADBLOCKS. Malaysia ni seronok kan , hari hari ada benda terjadi.

Tapi kebanyakkan benda yang terjadi menyusahkan semua orang.

It's so funny we can fight about stuff that sounds not too important , we can like fight for "WE WANT ACIDMAN" or "HACKERS PLEASE APPEAR / WE DONT WANT HACKERS" or "STOP TROUBLING OTHERS"

The funny thing is , seems like we've been forced to choose between Coffee and Tea. But we like Choco Cino instead. How to choose then?

Because in the end , there are people who are stuck in the middle of this arguments, dont you think? It's not fair,really.

You know?

Never Know

Jack Johnson

Shot In The Dark.

2011-07-06T22:56:00.002+08:00

I am a weird person.
It's not that weird weird , but you know weird . Like , weird .
Once I have something that I need to do,I will only focus on that one thing and ignore about the rest. Like for example , all I could ever think about now is , working ..working.. and working and working... and again working.
I love my job so much,nothing beats that for now.

But dont you think it's such a sad thing , to have nothing else besides working?
I think, for now I am still fine :)
Working , sleeping , working , sleeping . And it goes on and on and on for god knows,how long.
Everything I do , I like to do it alone , for me its better to do things alone. Its easier , faster and yeah , better.

Strange Things Will Happen
The Radio Dept.

Morning,Noon & Night.

2011-07-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

"There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone, and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love? And then you don't have it? What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shape your life around it? And then... it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is... death ends. This...? It could go on forever."
- Greys Anatomy.

Conscience Killer.

2011-06-18T22:52:00.002+08:00

Have you ever felt,neutral?
Like everything that is happening around you,you neither feel good or bad about it.
When you are around people, you dont feel like you're there,like really there.
When people talk to you, you dont give the ultimate response.
Or when you're driving, you just dont feel anything,you just want to drive and get to the end point.
Its,sad.
To be neutral in everything, because sometimes atleast we need to have A feeling .

I'm scared if suddenly I feel neutral at everything.
Don't you?
But when family is around,nothing feels better right :)
Family will never make you feel neutral because you either feel mad or happy but most of the time,happy of course :)

I'm A Pilot
Fanfarlo

Gotta go home yo.

2011-06-16T21:12:00.002+08:00

Yahoooooooo,Gaji pertama sudah dapat! Wah syoknya dapat tengok gaji sendiri,tapi.....kegembiraan tidaklah kekal sebab kena la langsaikan hutang parents yang tak terbayo bayo tu. Duit kereta kena lah bayar,duit dok rumah bayar jugak la tapi bila kira kira,cukup kot sekarang ni kena la belanja jimat-jimat sebab da kerja so tak bole nak kuih pau parents lagi. Sobs,but my mom always act like I'm still underage,the other day I wanted to buy baju kurung for hari raya so I chose this one baju kurung and she said "adik kecik lagi la mana bole pakai baju macamni" Umiiii ! I'm already 22 this year,manada underage dah! " but when I think back,I think I'm still "underage", honestly biasa la anak last kan memang manja wakaka. Tapi tengah fikir sampai bila nak jadi betul betul dewasa ni.

Lately, I always feel tired,like when Im at the office, one thing that I always say to myself : okay today after work I want to watch korean dramas!or movies ! but each time,after I reach home, my mind can't think elsewhere,I can only think of my bed-aircond-dinner-then-sleep. I feel very life-less,I need to have a proper life! U cant be this tired Nazira ! Ur still , okay takdalah tua sangat tapi malam masih muda so please do any healthy activities (wait like what,tengok drama sambil makan haha) Honestly,whole day my life only revolves around my working space, I dont get up from my chair unless it is lunch time or nak pergi surau.

TANAK ADA LIFE YANG LESS!
Helpppppppppppppppppp.

"Sometimes what you don't say makes all the difference."

Keep It Coming
Pixie Carnation

Keep it coming.

2011-06-15T22:47:00.002+08:00

You gave up on me,long long long time ago.

So I decided to give up on you too.

Every Teardrop is A Waterfall
Coldplay

Time to start a new chapter and I can't wait.

2011-06-15T14:05:00.006+08:00

Lama tak update blog disebabkan kesibukan kerja yang dahsyat.

Okay yang mana dapat cerita,akan cerita lah.

First; WANIE ENG DA KAHWIN bersama KAPTEN HAFIZ! Wah dah jadi Puan kawan aku sorang ni. Amin, alhamdulillah. Lepas ni macam turn ehem ehem Teya/AA, Dolie/RR? Hihihihihi!

Second; Kerja so far so okay,kerja biasalah dah dekat print clearance memang banyak. Im slowly getting there,and understand semua benda. From conversion to clearing. I though stage dia tak banyak,I mean,masa mula2 tak sangka kerja ni memang susah sebenarnya. Sebab banyak deal dengan system and editors from luar negara. (eg:NZ) . Kerja ni bukan 9-5,kerja ni 9-sampai abis kerja. HAHA. Tapi so far okay je,I mean I like my working enviroment,I love what Im doing right now :) Alhamdulillah,to get a job after I graduated is just a blessing even my plan for travelling got canceled. Itsokay maybe end of year,I'll proceed back with my travel plan. Istanbul is still in my list,or perhaps Korea? :) We'll see. Now that I have started working, I have responsibilities to pay everything using my salary. Hopefully I'll use my money wisely and appreciate money more than before.

Third; Yes probably will go for a weekend trip with filly o fish to jeng jeng ! Nantikan. Belum confirm lagi kang tak jadi sedih pulok.

Fourth; Celebrated Zatea's birthday at Garden,Pyramid<3

Fifth; Ingat nak pakai baju convo time raya (sebab ingat convo bulan 6) tapi tak jadi convo bulan 6,so tunggu la bulan 10. 10.10.2011 ADALAH TARIKH CONVO,KAWAN KAWAN SILA INGAT DAN DATANG TERUTAMANYA YANG BERNAMA ANI,ATEN,ATEA,SARAH,FILLY,HASHAS,NAQI DAN KAWAN2 MMU TERSAYANG DOLIE,ENG,ELA,TEYAH,WAWAU.

Sixth; GEN2 dah kerja night shift,takpun dia bgtau bos dia yang dia nak tuka nightshift sebab ada kereta suka park dekat ngan kete dia. Heleh.

Seventh; Rumah is otw to renovatio.probably will take about 4-5 months?Depends,but can't wait! Tapi rumah renting sekarang pun macam da selesa je duduk.Unifi dah wujud,so takda masalah kebosanan lagi! Jangan MCMC pergi block dramacrazy sudah.

Eighth; FORD FIESTA so menarik hokay.Dem bila nak ada duit banyak,bila kira setahun cam baru dapat save RMxxxxx...

Ninth; The past? Tak nak bother pun pasal past,benci tak suka pun tak. Neutral feeling. Im happy with the way I am now. No love no problem hualalalala. Sungguh tenang hidup tidak perlu menunggu orang lain lagi. Hanya perlu tunggu diri sendiri. Scoreeeeee!

CHOI DANIEL + KANG JI HWAN SANGAT HENSEM OKAY.kenapa lelaki tinggi dan kacak dan macam macho sungguh attractive.

Tenth; Memang kena biasakan pakai heels sekarang,nak cari heels lagi.

You're A Tourist

Death Cab For Cutie

Then there's nothing.

2011-06-04T21:31:00.002+08:00

It's like, you know , it's true that we can't hope on things too much. It's devastating if you keep your hope high for something that is uncertain. Because everything is uncertain.
So don't hope on things , instead make it happen . Yeah thats what people usually say.
It's funny that even if we try to make it happen , the status will still be uncertain. We don't know the outcome , will we handle it well ? will we be able to continue ? I don't know, we don't know.

Just whatever it is, try and make it happen, you don't know unless if you try.

It's funny that my bestfriend gave me a nickname,it goes something like this W.M.
Bila fikir balik, memang I can go with the nickname W.M because for me, everything is uncertain.
When it comes to me, everything is uncertain .
People will come and 'visit' me with nice intention and leave me behind for better things.
Saya sangat berpengelaman kalau deal dengan benda benda macam ni. Macam apa orang cakap, dah tepu.
Dah tepu sangat.

I just hope that, people will notice that I have feelings too.Yeah,I just hope for something like that will eventually happen, kot? Takkan kot?

"But that was once upon a time and happliy ever after .It's time to start a new chapter. "

Chapters
Commuters

I saw sunrise, I saw sunlight.

2011-06-02T16:32:00.003+08:00

We move on , people move on , everyone moves on because thats like part of life kan.
But sometimes , we do think back about our past , we reflect back to our past and try to change to become a better person in the future.
Some memories hurt,some make us smile once again. But sampai level 'smile' je lah you know what I mean?
If you ask me , I am someone who doesnt turn back. Why should I turn back ? Those people in the past made me turn my back on them , so yeah why should I turn back?
We move on because we have reasons to move on.
For me , I dont want to live in a past, because when I think back, it just hurts me but it doesnt make me cry. Probably because I am invicible already.
I just dont see the purpose of crying because of people who hurt us in the past.

Or maybe because , I dont like to cry.
There will be time when we can no longer take it anymore,like,thats it man,u're too much! Everyone has limit kan?

Contoh macam ada orang campak duit kat kita ke apa ke kan,contoh je lah.
Atau apa apa contoh lain yang bole reflect macam , being just plain rude by not responding.
Its like , baik kita sorang2 je kan daripada sakit hati tak tentu pasal. Mari tenang-tenang kan diri :)

Okay anyway hi JUNE!
please treat me well, I'm dealing with New Zealand product right now.
:)

Daylight
Coldplay

(7) times.

2011-05-30T15:18:00.003+08:00

NTXA,NTXA,NTXA.NTXA ,NTXA,NTXA, NTXA.
Yes repeat that seven times, have to do print composition for NTXA seven times this month.
two versions of NTXA with 660 pages each, omai memang tak balik rumah hari2.MENANGIS wey.
Haritu buat 14 pages pun 2-3 jam.
Ok takdalah sampai tak balik,tapi balik pun bukan buat apa apa anyways I have to do print composition. I love conversion, newsletter, commentary but to do FOLIO. Thats the thing I least can possibly do :(

Anyways,
til then,will update more. NTXA NTXA NTXA NTXA NTXA NTXA NTXA
Not funny.
NERVOUS!

Maybe.

2011-05-27T16:39:00.003+08:00

Lyrics to sum up my Friday,

Friday should be the loneliest day for me, my training ended yesterday, mom is at N9, dad is like usual - his routine is to play golf at the driving range after work, bro - is nowhere to be found,lepak I think. So what should I have for dinner? Hmmm? Suggestion? Should I go and eat Korean Food tonight hehe, but I just ate Indian cuisine for lunch with my sister and her friends. Okay maybe takeaway Subway but I need to buy new flat shoes,kasut beli kat nyonya cina ni dah koyak :(

So okay,another boring post;

"I've been down so low, People look at me and they know, They can tell something is wrong
Like I don't belong, Staring through a window, Standing outside, they're just too happy to care tonight, I want to be like them, But I'll mess it up again

I tripped on my way in, And got kicked outside, everybody saw...

And I know that it's a wonderful world, But I can't feel it right now, Well I thought that I was doing well, But I just want to cry now, Well I know that it's a wonderful world, From the sky down to the sea"
- James Morrison " Wonderful World"

"I could tell from the minute I woke up , It was going to be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes, And try to tell myself I can't go back to bed"
- Phantom Planet " Lonely Day"

"And it's simply irrational weather, Can't even hear myself think, Constantly bailing out water, But still like I'm gonna sink, Coz I'm under the weather, Just like the world, So sorry for being so bold"
- Kt Tunstall " Under The Weather"

"I wanna breeze and an open mind, I wanna swim in the ocean, Wanna take my time for me
All me, So maybe tomorrow, I'll find my way home"
- Stereophonics " Maybe Tomorrow"

I feel so left out,I havent been to the cinema for ages,the last time I went was last year,sedihnya nak tengok movie juga. Tengok sorang2 la harini, mungkin idea bernas. Okay bye.

T-F

2011-05-24T09:07:00.002+08:00

Hi,it's Tuesday. For me,Tuesday is the odd-est day compared to Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday,Thursday and Friday.
Because :
Monday - Monday should be the most popular day, like "HEY ITS MONDAY BLUES" and everytime your football team lose on Sunday Night, then it'll be Monday Blues. Or when you have workloads then yeah, Monday Blues. Or when you're stuck in a traffic jam on Monday morning then it'll be Monday Blues once again. See how popular Monday is right?

Wednesday - Wednesday is you know,somewhere in the middle . We neither hate it or love it , it's like neutral. If we have work , then we do it if we dont then that should not be a problem pun. Kan kan?

Thursday - Ok here's the best part of Thursday, Thursday is fun fun fun because we know that weekend is approaching ! and we'll finish our work in no time,like.. zapppp! Dan bila malam,masa untuk baca Surah Yassin selepas Solat Maghrib.

Friday - Yeah who doesnt like Friday? Because yay it's almost weekend !

TUESDAY , is the awkward-est day ever, because you're left with workloads,and it's not even wednesday yet,Monday just left you, and you're stuck with deadlines. and , Tuesday,is too sleepy.

OK BYE,random talk!

Friday Friday Friday,

2011-05-20T12:21:00.006+08:00

It's Friday Friday,Gotta get down on Friday Friday. Partyin Partyin Yeah! Okay lets stop imitating Rebecca Black's autovoice.

Last time, I mentioned that there's no other drama that can beat Brilliant Legacy right? Because you know romance drama doesnt mean that it has to be lovey dovey all the way,there are many ways to convey love towards something/someone. Well Brilliant Legacy did that,so thats why I loved it too much. Same goes to Paradise Ranch<3 Tehe top 2 favs but , but , but , but ,
Suddenly just this year,I was waiting for another good drama with good soundtracks and storyline to come out and poof 49 Days just popped up!
I have to say that 49 Days beats all the rest with a close call. 49 Days, HAN KANG!
The story is really different from what I've seen before,
It's abit twisted but the ending is the feeling of tenderness,you know you know?

I cried a lot,from episode 1 to episode 20. The drama highlighted "the one thing beyond human control always has been life and death". You can control life and death right?

Boleh tak nak cerita drama ni pasal apa?

Pasal seorang perempuan nama dia Ji Hyun dia ada tunang nama dia Min Ho dan dua orang kawan baik bernama Seo Woo dan In Jung dan seorang lagi boleh dikatakan kawan baik juga tapi lelaki ni benci dia, nama dia Han Kang.(kawan masa sekolah tapi da putus kawan,dan dia sekarang kawan kepada Min Ho)
Masa engagement ceremony Ji Hyun Min Ho,Han Kang datang lambat dan dia macam sedih melihat Ji Hyun sudah bertunang. Sebenarnya expression dia macam sedih + marah.
Suatu hari, Ji Hyun pergi try baju kahwin sebab ayah Ji Hyun ni nak suruh dia dan Min Ho kawin el pronto,you know el pronto? Min Ho ni bekerja dengan ayah Ji Hyun. Selepas Ji Hyun try baju kahwin,dia pun berada di dalam kereta lah sekali dia nampak Min Ho ni kat dalam kereta lain tengah peluk In Jung iaitu bestfriendnya.
Ji Hyun pun drive la pergi tempat lain dengan perasaan marah dan sedih.
Dalam pada masa yang sama,seorang perempuan bernama Yi Kyung nak bunuh diri dengan membuatkan dirinya melintas jalanraya yang sesak. Lalu semua kereta pun break emergency dan termasuk lah Ji Hyun. Tapi Ji Hyun tak sedar diri dan koma. Dalam pada masa yang sama,soul dia keluar dari badan dia dan dia macam blank tatau apa jadi,semua orang tak nampak dia tapi seorang lelaki nampak dia,nama dia Scheduler. Scheduler = Malaikat Maut.
Jadi Scheduler cakap kat Ji Hyun "hey patutnya awak bukan mati sekarang,salah schedule ni, untuk menebus kesalahan ini anda diberi 49 hari untuk mencari tiga orang yang boleh menangis untuk anda,tangisan jujur ya bukan tangisan buat2,excluding family"
Jadi Scheduler cakap,untuk melaksanakan tugas ini, awak boleh borrow body perempuan bernama Yi Kyng(wanita yang nak bunuh diri tadi) sebab Yi Kyung kerja malam tapi awak kena return body dia before 12 malam. So thats where the story starts!

So Ji Hyun is still Ji Hyun except that she's living in somebody else's body. Jadi dia macam dalam 49 days ni dia dapat discover alot of stuff,her fiance cheated on her,her bestfriend backstabbed her,how cruel life actually is,how people can potray different images outside. Basically,discovering manusia ni macam mana sebenarnya and how life can be so complicated and badasssss. but dalam kebusy-an itu,there are people who still believe in her and support her and still have faith in her.
So thats how good it is,
Can I just tell you the ending?
Ji Hyun actually died at the end. It's toooooooooooooooooooo depressing!
and thats where the writer highlighted,
the one thing beyond human control always has been life and death, even if kita boleh control apa orang fikir terhadap kita,even if kita boleh control macam mana orang nak react terhadap kita, no one can control death. Because it's part of life, sooner or later we're gonna die and that's fatal.
That's why this drama is rational,logic and not really lovey dovey. It's about life.
Ohmai, I really enjoy drama or movie about life.

Okay ada lagi satu ni movie pulak!
Nama cerita dia Finding Mr Destiny,tapi cerita dia takda la secorny titlenya haha.
It's about this woman who wanted to find her first love that she met in India 10 years ago,so she hired this guy who is specialized in "Finding first love" and both of them searched her first love. Perempuan ni sangatlah selekeh, lelaki ni sangatlah neat freak,but they accidentally liked each other. At the end,she managed to find her first love but decided to be with the neat freak guy because..... So yeah, ada lah plot dia but apa yang movie itu cuba sampaikan is,your first love tak semestinya the first guy you met. Faham tak hahaha.

OKAY BYE,
This post is already due for over a week,just want to post it up.

If you could only see.

2011-05-16T21:05:00.003+08:00

One of my colleague told me
"Nazira,you're still young but why I see that you always get tired easily? What did u do over the weekend?"
Okay when she said that, I started wondering "Damn, which side of life that I've missed yo?"

No the thing is, I realized I don't really go out that much. When people ask me "what is your favourite past time" or "tell us a bit about urself"
I'll go and answer "my hobby is, go food-hunting!" I enjoy food hunting so much , but..... its been awhile lah and plus I don't think anyone will like to go food hunting with me. Like duhhh. Everyone else also has other things to do.
And whenever I get the question of "introduce-your-self" , my answer will always be lameeeeeeeeee. Like duhh (okay ni sebenarnya ayat baru kt office tadi) , and my answer will always be like this "Emmmm,I don't have anything interesting about me but I like food so much!" or "Emmm,I'm a plain simple quiet person" see,so lame right the way I answer to those questions.

It's not that I lack of self-confidence or self-esteem , I just dont find it's necessary for people to know me personally,(put aside work-related-stuff) I'm really not interesting .
I spend most of my time at home watching korean dramas,giggling sendiri macam orang freak, or you can find me at drive thrus/subways or you can find me sleeping on my bed. Last time I went to the cinema,was last year. I don't know whats new in the cinema today.
It's nothing interesting but I wish I was someone interesting. It must be great to be bubbly and enjoy talking to others, gather with unknown people, it must be interesting to be that kind of person who likes to mingle with others right :)

So if you're someone bubbly,be that way okay ! Be grateful that you're bubbly,
I just wish that I can be interesting someday.
For me, it's really hard to lift up my mood.
To me, having a great family and great rows of friends is already more than enough.

I just wish I was someone interesting.

Kazoku Nokumori
Home Made

Monday Bluesz.

2011-05-16T17:07:00.004+08:00

Disebabkan tempat di office memandang jalan raya di luar , saya boleh nampak kereta jahat tow truck tarik kereta or tidak, boleh nampak hujan dan boleh nampak macam macam lah. Luas pemandangan banyak pengetahuan orang cakap. Memandai je kan.
I actually like my place here,eventhough there are 5 of us here and the rest of team mates are upstairs. Maybe because I dont like to be seen hahahaheheuhuahah. Kenapa night shift lebih ramai orang yang sama age? Nak move night shift boleh tak? Eh ehhkss.

Anyway, Lee DeWyze is coming to SUBANG PARADE yo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm more than excited than before , sebab my sister got 3 passes to meet n greet Lee exclusively!!!! Memang esok kena pegang tangan dia lama lama eh lelebih. Leeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee tak sabarnya saya!
I'll meet Zatea and Aten there, if Haney free dia datang join. Tak sabonyeeee!

Training habis minggu ni, so yeah next week dah betul2 bekerja,ok macam menakutkan je but so far I'm coping well with the induction etc , training session etc. and Next month ada team trip toooooooooooo either Genting/Cameron/Picnic or 3 days makan tanpa henti haha.
Best best tak sabarnya saya.

Anyway itu je kot update yang mengada ngada ni,saja nak cakap esok nak jumpa Lee DeWyze,memang berharap dia akan stop by here tak sangka dia akan datang betul2!

SEEEEEEEEEE YAAA,another holiday then! Nak cuti banyak2 boleh tak???Now I'm going to start and appreciate holidays.
Rindulah dengan kawan kawan subang dan kawan kawan MMU. :(
Hope to see them soon!

Kazoku Nukumori
Home Made

Laporan Pertama.

2011-05-15T19:37:00.004+08:00

Hi,
I think I have stepped into a different environment lah recently?
It's really different,I'm surrounded by adults! Most of them are above 25, new friends are between 27-32. I feel so out of place, no it's not because they're older than me, probably because I'm scared people dont want to be my friend because of my age, sob sob.
This is my first job and first time working,yes put aside internship. I hope nothing will freaks me out!

But anyways, working life is really different and I'm happy that people over here treat me as a colleague, I know it's early to judge but up til now,everyone seems nice.
Just sometimes people keep on asking "U're Fiza's sister right? Eh your sister is Fiza right? Are u related to someone here? I didn't know you're Fiza's sister" my sister might be someone popular or gossips do spread fast. hahaha, so sometimes I don't know how to reply or response to that.
Honestly,when I interviewed last time, the Production Manager and my now-Team Leader didn't know I'm Rafiza's sister, I don't think it's necessary to tell them lah kan. My sister only helped me by passing my resume to the HR department and it's totally up to them whether to call me for an interview or hire me or whatnot. My sister has no right to ask them this and that but I'm thankful that I've been accepted here and to my sister because she helped me by passing the resume,I'm not that scared probably because I have someone that I know who works here ihihi. Yay to sister<3

Anyways,tips to myself:
Here, we need to ABSOLUTELY smile when we pass by anyone, yes important!
First tip to get out of trouble ; SMILE.
Second tip to get out of trouble ; DONT INVOLVE TOO MUCH! I'm lucky that my place is on the 3rd floor,most of the production teams are on the fourth floor. So yeah,I'm pretty much away from most of the people. We only have the ITs and Financial Team on the 3rd floor,and they don't really involve in what we're doing.
Third tip to get out of trouble ; DON'T TALK TOO MUCH unless if you're being ask, wait I'm actually telling this to myself,but ur free to use these tips :P
Fourth tip to get out of trouble ; DO YOUR JOB WELL, PERFECTION IS IMPORTANT! I hope I can do my job well. I'm confident that I can do it. InsyAllah harap semuanya lancar amin!

I'm currently under the guidance of Team Leader,Raja Shafri and my team is Team South Asia and New Zealand . There are merely 10 teams for production and each team usually has 6 production editors and 4 sub editors and a team leader(i think) but my team has 16 people! with 9 prod editors and 5 sub editors and a team leader. My sister is also a Team Leader,she's handling Team Australia Delta. But we hardly meet, because we're dealing with totally different thing. But because sometimes I don't have teman for lunch, I always bug my sister and ask her if I could join her and her friends :p

Anyways,
Baru 5 hari kan , jadi banyak lagi perkara kena tempuh
Yes minggu lepas baru lepas kena tempuh 5 kali introduction diri.
Masa 1st day,masa 2nd day pulak ada potluck lunch between 4 regions/teams. Best makan banyak gilaaa. Office sungguh meriah. masa 3rd day,introduce time training(yes traning 2 minggu fuh letih den), masa 4th day, introduce dengan sapa eh tak ingat pula saya tapi masa 5th day, time general meeting infront of merely 100+ people, fuh fio fiu takutnya saya tapi sudah selesai, saya harap tidak ada lagi self introduction. Hari jumaat tu juga ada macam 5-6 cake secret recipe celebrate bday orang2 di WK,meriah nya WK banyak sungguh celebration. last week je mmg makan banyak kat office tapi perut asik berbunyi time kerja...

OKE LAH
btw,lelaki muka garang sila la jangan pandanga dengan pandangan harimau,haritu maaf kerana hampir terlanggar. Aiseh man k bye esok bole blog lagi di office!

SELAMAT HARI ISNIN SEMUA YANG BEKERJA!
MONDAY BLUESZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Dunia Kini.

2011-05-12T15:33:00.000+08:00

Saya merasakan potensi orang orang dewasa sekarang untuk berkahwin pada umur 24 amatlah tipis sekali. 4-5 Tahun dahulu, umur 24tahun pasti nya semua orang berlumba lumba mahu mendirikan masjid rumahtangga dan hidup disamping yang tersayang tetapi kini, peratus orang yang berkahwin pada umur 24 sudah menurun sebanyak 80%.

Rata rata mereka masih belum bersedia untuk memasuki alam perkahwinan, kos sara diri semakin tinggi, ringgit Malaysia naik tapi gaji masih biasa tiada perubahan ketara.
Nak beli rumah apatah lagi,rumah sungguh mahal sehingga mencecah 9 juta,minimum harga rumah di area Klang Valley 1 juta,chop sapa nak beli jang. Mahainya rumah,apartment dan condominium lagilah mahal beb! Sekarang ni,bila nak beli property.... mmg susah lah. Haih!

Kereta? Ala kereta buat apa,naik kereta biasa pun boleh,buat apa nak kejar kejar siapa pakai kereta paling cun ke meletop omak ke ekzos 10 ke,sekarang pun orang dah tak modify kereta sebab baik simpan duit beli rumah betul ke tidak tu?
Yang penting,harta seperti Rumah tu lah penting,takkan nak tinggal dalam kete kot cik kak cik abang.(tetiba emosional)

Persoalannya,kalau rumah sekarang harganya 9 juta, cuba fikir 5 tahun akan datang berapa? Agaknya billionaire sahaja yang mampu memilik rumah,persoalannya sekarang ni ada ke lagi ramai billionaire?
Jadi option terakhir,kena la tinggal dengan ibubapa.
Peratusan untuk berkahwin pada usia muda juga sudah merosot, nak keluar dating kena pakai duit,walhal kita pon tak cukup duit. Jadi camna ni bro, ada tak calon suami macam Bill Gates untuk saya? Thanks !
Tadi dengar radio,dengar kata ron95 naik lagi tahun ni mungkin 2.15-2.70 haih mmg gila camni hidup dalam kesempitan wang. Bukan nak buat wang tu berjoli jolie,eh jolie plak,joli. Tapi duit itu penting untuk menyimpan wang pada masa depan.
Tapi kalau simpan wang tapi masih tak cukup macam mana tu?
WallahuAlam.

Saya doakan,semua rakan rakan dan ahli keluarga saya sentiasa menjalani hidup yang dirahmati Allah. Agama sila la jangan ketepikan.Sentiasa berdoa,jangan berdoa je. Perkara lain jangan ditinggalkan.Jangan leka dengan kehidupan,rajin cari rezeki,rajin bekerja,rajin belajar dan jangan abaikan tanggungjawab. Amin

Next post nak report pasal tempat kerja.
K BYEEEEEEEEEE!

/hai yang duduk kat luar tuuuuuuuuuu, nama apa.

A-Ve+Ve

2011-04-28T23:32:00.003+08:00

So May is approaching,like real soon. April is ending,like real soon. And everything is moving at a fast pace.

Checklist :

- Move things here and there from our old house to our new house that we will be staying for 4-5 months before we move out to our real house. (BASICALLY,UMI STATED EARLIER THAT WE WILL MOVE OUT TWICE THIS YEAR OMAGAAD) Anyways. CHECKED

- Organize my new room and fit ALL OF MY STUFF (yes including junks and unnecessary stuff that are qualified to be thrown away) Anyways. CHECKED

- Give up on certain things including the evil work life that I just experienced. CHECKED

- Buy my necessities using my own money. CHECKED though its not enough,I need to buy more. OK STOP!

- Ready to enter the real working life. CHE...OK TAK READY K BAIIIIII.

- Habis tengok Running Man dari ep 1-34. CHECKED mana ni 35-41?

- Ada drama baru untuk dilihat, MANNY! Yahooooooo.

- Kenapa sekarang ni suka category ahjussi ni? Suh Ji Suk,SPARTA Jong Kook, Soo Ji Seob, TaeWoong, Kang Ji Hwan . semua nya sudah mencecah umur 30. Ee so taste orang tua. atau adakahsebab mereka sungguh berkarisma,wah sungguh macho dan lelakinya. Boyband2 18 tahun nitak main lah kan. (hahaha)

- Ready to move out? NOOOO.

Such a random post,again. I hate .

Oh lepastu from Twitter.
Benci sebab zodiac ni selalu betul,bukan la nak percaya.cuma tak suka bila dia macamcoincidence.

#Sagittarius are detached from emotions because emotions hold a person back. #ZodiacZone

Avalanche
Ryan Adams

Knife Fight.

2011-04-27T01:33:00.002+08:00

Why do we wait?
Sometimes waiting is exhilarating, or it could be exhausting.
So why do we wait?
Because we know that somebody is waiting at the finish line, middle of the journey, start of the race?
Why?
Or is it because we like to make people wait for us?
No?
We wait because we simply don't know what to do, when to start, how to react, we're waiting for something that isn't coming.
So,
Do you think waiting is worth it at the end?

No.
Because others are busy juggling with what they suppose to be doing, others are too busy to tell you whats wrong or whats not, or maybe others are just too tired waiting for you before you noticed it then it's gone just like that.

I'm not questioning, I am just wondering.

So Weightless
David Choi

So Weightless.

2011-04-24T13:35:00.001+08:00

Sometimes things;

- don't always go as how we planned it.

- just happen without any reason behind it.

- get complicated, and complex and tangled up with this and this formulas

- don't go from bad to worse

- things get too heavy and we have no strength to lift it up

- can be solve with two way communication or three or four or multiple channels.

- take time to understand

- couldn't be better

- little things are big

- big things start from small things

- cost money, happiness needs money, we need money to buy things to live. takkan nak curi grocery dekat pasaraya haha, yes food makes us happy.undeniable.we spend a lot on food or is it just me?

- just come together, don't know how but sometimes things just come together

- are easy, like a b c 1 2 3 4 5 6

- good things fall apart so that better things will fall together.

- there are other zillionth people out there who are facing the same thing, we're actually not alone.

- it's the simple thing that is harder to tell.

- it's the little things that count, it's the little things that make we giggle

- get lost in our pc storage , dem yu

- get crazy

- you blow away that will come back

- do go right

- just get broken, ran out of batteries

- it's the unexpected things that are the most powerful

- just go down smoothly

- are not as they appear , like products in catalogs or online blogshops

- some things , don't change

- go wrong for no reason at all.

&& sometimes things just dissapear,that is all.

Forget It All Again
Rich McCulley

1989.

2011-04-17T17:47:00.002+08:00

To think that I'm a boring person,is sad.
To think that I'm the black sheep,is just so sad.
To think that I will always be a boring person and I will always be the black sheep, is just too sad to even think about it.

All I need is just a little space but I have too much space til nothing will ever work out.

I just want a space, not spaces.

"We've been waiting all our lives
For things we've always had
But have no eyes to see.
Something new is going to happen,
The most natural thing
But nothing we'd expect."

Buildings and Mountains
The Republic Tigers

##

2011-04-15T22:08:00.004+08:00

Since Sagittarius are thinkers and adventurers, they are not often sappy or emotional.

Sagittarius are not emotional people but they are easily hurt by a careless selfish action.

If you enjoy the challenge of travel and actively exploring the world, then you will be
appealing to a Sagittarius

Sagittarius :

Difficulty with follow-through, procrastination, and commitments.

Do not expect favors in return, their kindness is selfless.

Fond of variety.

Expect loyalty and friends who are willing to talk and learn with them.

OK PLEASE DONT BELIEVE IN HOROSCOPES!
I ust want to highlight,why so true!!
Tsk.

Alhamdulillah! Convo lambat lagi,takpalah status keluar dulu pun boleh.
GRADUATED!!!

Come on come on.

2011-04-15T01:42:00.006+08:00

Hi Hi Hi Hi Hi, Okay, firstly I just want to say that I love Korean Dramas, Tv Shows & Korean Guys of course (eh itu biasa lah kan? hahaha) but I'm not a crazy fangirl, I'm not really obsessed towards them.
Okay maybe towards Seul Gong Chan, I have a deep affection towards him,that's a fact. (Eh fact ke) Okay saja nak share share.
Well as you know, for Korean Celebrities, the way they dress up/image is important.
For me, I dont go for cute guys or yang dress up gila gila tapi tak comel jugak. Hakhakhak. Like many other girls,I have my favs too !

First;
Tentulah LEE SEUNGGI ! He's too smart. I envy him for being capable to do all at once. He's not that handsome but his personality that shines all the way! A degree holder in International Commerce and soon, Master holder in Trade Theory & Finance? Is there anything that he can't possibly do? Yes, he can't cook. But who cares, pandainya!

Ada tak rupa macam dia? Mesti takda kan,wah Seunggi one in a zillion.

Second;
SEUL GONG CHAN! Well , I only like the character of Seul Gong Chan and not Lee Dong Wook.(Oklah suka Lee Dong Wook sikit). Sebab character dia tak corny lepastu tak cheesy lepastu nama dia paling hensem.

Third;
New New New MAX CHANGMIN! Tinggi weh dia,lepastu mempunyai badan yang taff tapi kurus bukan macam Fahrin k thanks! MAX CHANGMIN! Lepas tengok Paradise Ranch,terus jatuh hati tanpa henti,walaupun rating rendah but jeez,MAX CHANGMIN!Bila tengok dia kat Running Man, he seems like a down-to-earth guy, you know guy-next-door? Lepas Paradise Ranch tau bukan zaman dia muda muda dulu haha.

Fourth;
Yonghwa, dulu dulu ada dengar CN Blue tapi macam tak berapa minat sebab macam eh sapa ni tak best pun haha. Lepastu lepas tengok Running Man & Strong Heart,wah Yong Hwa ni, for a 22 y.o guy he's normal :) .Tak berapa metrosexual lepastu macho,fuh fuh.

Fifth;
It's hard to say but I actually like HARORO! Ohmaaaaai comel nya HaHa ni rupanya. Comel gila padahal umur dah 34? Comelnya! Ada tak orang macam Haroro? Ada tak? Anyooo?

COMEL KAN??? PORORO - HARORO!

Sixth;
EUNHYUK ! Nobody can dance better than him right? Fuh tak bole lupa time pergi SuperJunior haritu tengok dia menari weh dem dem, apa ni so macho sebab tinggi dan tak dress macam Shindong yang sombong woops.

Seventh;
Rain. Yes the ultimate BI! I guess nobody can outstand his popularity in Korea. He's like in his own league. Siapa tak suka Rain wey?

Saja letak 3 gamba bole tengok Rain pelbagai aksi.

Eight;
T.O.P, wah suara paling garang dan muka paling garang tapi kelakar. Tengok banyak banyak kali vid Big Bang pun tetap rasa bila dia menari,dia paling macam "Dem-must-I-dance-can-I-just-stand-here-and-rap". Baca rumors cakap dia lead Full House 2. Mananya ni FH2!!

Ninth;
Ok ni category ahjussi sikit, Soo Ji Seob. wah kacaknyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Lepastu wah ganasnya berlakon. Sungguh lelaki ! Wohooo.

Tenth;
Ni pun category ahjussi, dorky handsome and funny. Kang Ji Hwan!

Eleventh;
Ni share ramai ramai haha, U-KNOW YUNHO!(He looks like a mannequin,plastic surgery?) !Yesung! PRINCE SIWON! Hyun-Bin! and Song Seung Hun (because of his comeback in My Princess)

OKE BYEEEEEE! I feel like this is a post that you should just ignore, I'm seriously bored to death. I have works to do yet I am still playing around -.-

Dengar TVXQ tanpa henti. K BYE

Monotonous Pt.1

2011-04-11T22:58:00.003+08:00

Come to think of it,the last time I ever went to Cinema was last year.
What Rango? What ? What ?
What Rapunzel ?
What Green Hornet ? Kick Ass ? Social Network? What Adam Sandler's movies? I am Number Four ? Hikayat Merong ? Inception, Harry Potter?(Eh those were last year's movies)
What else ? I dont even know.
If you ask me about movies, no no don't ask me because I know absolutely nothing.

What I do know are korean dramas,korean reality shows. Hahaha.......such a boring person.
And I keep on saying that GC has no life because he's always at home and he always go out alone.
The thing is, I think I have no life too -.-
I am always here, infront of the pc, in my room.
I am a lone ranger, why am I always a lone ranger -.-
I should start a new hobby which is.. having a life.

Please go out and watch movies. Nobody has time for you, but seriously Nazira you need to check out whats been happening in the outside world.

Please Ask For Help
Telekinesis

Oh Free.

2011-04-11T17:31:00.002+08:00

Will I be alright?
Am I choosing the right path?
I mean,what is right and what is wrong anyway?
Why do I think toooooooo far?
Can I do this?
Am I suitable enough?
Rejected few choices that are actually within my line, and chose something that is quite different.
Hurmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Will everything be okay?
:O
I hate feeling clueless and not sure of what to do :(((
Like people always say,nothing is wrong with trying after all,experience is what we need.
Hopefully everything will be, OKAY.
:(

Maybe Tomorrow
Stereophonics

I Love ALLAH!

2011-04-07T23:33:00.004+08:00

There is not greater love in this life than loving Allah.
Setiap kali bila perkara yang dilalui menjadi susah,kita cari Allah.
Tapi jangan lah kita lupakanNYA bila kita gembira kerana Allah tidak pernah sama sekali lupakan umatNYA.
Sentiasa bersifat syukur dan sederhana.
Terima kasih Allah untuk segalanya kerana memberikan aku keluarga dan kawan-kawan yang tidak ternilai harganya.

Di dunia ini,tidak ada siapa yang boleh memahami isi hati kita melainkan Allah Yang Maha Esa,
Aku berdoa kepada mu Ya Allah supaya aku dapat menjadi hamba yang baik disisimu,
as a human I make mistakes here and there, hopefully I can be a better Muslim day by day.

*Kumpul duit dalam Tabung Haji,cukup tak ni nak pergi dalam beberapa tahun akan datang ni,insyAllah.

Speaking a Dead Language.

2011-04-06T23:55:00.003+08:00

I'm wondering what if everything is just easy to say,like everything is simple,straightforward, no hidden meaning, straight to the dead point, convincing enough.

What would world be like then?
"I'm going to attack you!"
But, actually you're not really going to attack right? Unless if you are a pyscho.

"I'm changing!"
But, actually you're not really going to change right? Unless if you plan and plot.

"I'm going to take my shower Mom!"
But,actually you're not really going to the bathroom right? Unless if you are really obedient,I dont think anybody is.

"I'm going to pick you up now!"
But,actually it takes like what, 10 minutes for you to gear up. Unless if you are being paid as a driver.

It's like,nobody is really punctual,nobody is really straightforward and nothing is easy to say.

*i want my old hair back! I want ! Please grow faster hair ! I will never cut u off anymore,I'm sorry so please faster oke fast fast fast fast ! :(((((((((((((((

Pleaseee :(

Belongings
Clock Opera

High-ho.

2011-04-06T17:54:00.006+08:00

Today, I went for shopping at KL, alone, because I'm cool like that,zzzzz. Bought like a bundle of clothes and only spent for RMxxx. Murah murah lai lai.

Went to two most hated places in KL,no no not the shopping complex but you know lah roads in KL are indescribable, no no not the roads, but the drivers, motorcyclists.
Just want to say, I have nothing against motorcyclists but sometimes they get on my nerves. No no, I am talking about manners on the road here.

-Okay, I really dont mind giving ways as long as they give some response like giving signals, angkat tangan cakap thank you. I dont mind giving ways to road users, because I dont own any of the roads, those roads belong to everyone so why is it so hard for people to respect others while they're driving or riding the motorcycles? Don't cause heartache and headache to other people lah kan? I am not saying I'm perfect while driving, but those things are you know,common sense.

-Driving really slow on a busy road, come on it's not like you have to speed 100km! Just make sure you drive at the same pace with others so other people will not honk honk you and anda baru sahaja dapat mengurangkan dosa orang lain dari mencarut,syukur Alhamdulillah bio-aura.

-When entering junction, please do give signals. Or kalau signal rosak,turun tingkap angkat tangan macam orang orang dulu belaja driving. Kalau sapa tak bagi signal mmg dah free free kena bodoh bangang etc etc.

-Motorcyclists, please bawa motor dekat lorong yang betul bukan tak boleh nak bawa atas jalan takda sapa nak marah,just because ur riding a motorcycle doesnt mean you can simply cilok here and there. Karang tercampak pastu mati, orang lain yang kena hadap hukuman tau? Bukan hukuman penjara je tapi hukuman bersalah sampai mati.
So please be rational to others, do you like it if we cilok here and there infront of u? No?

-Orang yang suka cucuk, layak kena lazer macam perlawanan Malaysia vs Indonesia tu. Why are u rushing and gushing and causing people infront of you terpaksa speed up tekan minyak. What if you are driving a Porsche,and the person infront of u is driving a Kancil. And dia tak dapat nak tukar lane and u keep on cucuk-ing? Siapa lagi bodoh? Orang yang kereta besar tapi otak kecil kot.
I mean Im not saying I never cucuk people on the road, (pandang bawah) , but I only do that IF only the person infront of me is too stubborn to change the lane and driving at 10km/h,padahal lane sebelah semua kosong.Itu pon satu,tak rasional sungguh.

- Lagi satu,traffic light.I think for Malaysians its really normal to speed up kat t.light.
Red indicates stop
Yellow means slow down
Green you can go.
However,for us...

RED MEANS SPEEEEEEEEEEEEEED selagi boleh
YELLOW , PECUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT TANAK STOP
GREEN, slow lek lu belum merah lagi,sap kok lu.
Padahal ini semua salah oke hahahaa, (diri sendiri suka buat) , I mean its not a healthy habit when you're on the road.We suppose to stop and slow down and traffic light can be really dangerous,thats where accidents always occur.
So just a reminder to myself and to everyone else haha.

-What else?STOPPING YOUR CAR! Okay this one, seriously if you need to stop and take a phone call,CAN YOU PLEASE STOP ANYWHERE STOPPABLE? DONT JUST SIMPLY STOP lepastu buat orang lain susah hati?

-Kat parking,mmg biasa la kalau tak ikut direction kan? HAHA,nak cari parking punya pasal semua jalan pun redah je. Tak elok la macam ni,marilah kita ikut arahan di parking lot. (bole buat kalau takda kereta and tak menghalang org lain heh heh heh)

So those are just from my point view.
Did you know that from the way you drive actually can represent your personality?
If you suka cucuk, means you are the poyo poyo type nak show off.
If you lambat, means you are carefree but dont drive too lambat lah :p
So just be rational to others,it's not a hard thing to do.
Sebab tu jalan kat malaysia semua macam tooot haram,sebab banyak orang orang macam ni atas jalan.
I want to highlight again, I'm not a perfect driver,I make mistakes on the road too so lets everyone! Be rational on the road and stop causing people heartache :D

Jalan jem tu lain cita la kan.K BYE!

Pesanan khas dibawa oleh Plus, eh Plus pulak tapi Nas.

Rock and Grohl.

2011-04-05T13:10:00.002+08:00

Prepare for a great comeback from the 90's.
Please show this in Malaysia,I dont mind if I have to watch it alone.
AND PLEASE COME TO MALAYSIA OK!
I listen to them every single freakin day and never get bored of it.
My daily dose of music.

And the new album?
How should I say it?
THE BEST COMEBACK ALBUM EVER!
Every single track is , bomb diggity.

Please Ask For Help.

2011-04-03T11:03:00.005+08:00

I'm not gonna let you down,
But I'm not gonna help you up...
It takes so long to turn me around,
When I think nothing could be wrong...
And then you can't hear me and I can't hear you,
And then you wander downtown 'bout a quarter to two,
Well with your head held low and not a thing to do you,
Gotta give me some time with those one's and two's
Oh-Oh!

You're like a puzzle that can't be solved,
Missing pieces never fill the gaps...
You got the salt and I got the wound,
But, all you gotta do is ask...
And there's a glint in your eye, you curl your lip
Now when you go to shut the door
And I can't see shit
And when you start I can't stop,
Nothing for me to grip
And when i try to get away,
You always give me the slip

Oh-Oh!

Please ask for
Please ask for
Please ask for help!

Please ask for
Please ask for
Please ask for help!

Please ask for
Please ask for
Please ask for help!

Please ask for
Please ask for
Please ask for help!

Telekinesis - Please Ask For Help. Wah masa sudah ada untuk mencari lebih banyak lagu baru menggantikan lagu lagu lama yang dah lusuh.

Fun fun fun fun.

2011-04-02T14:39:00.004+08:00

It's Friday,Friday. Gettin’ down on Friday. Everybody’s lookin’ forward to the weekend .
Partyin’, partyin’ (Yeah) Fun, fun, fun, fun.
Lookin’ forward to the weekend .
Yesterday was Thursday, Thursday. Today i-is Friday, Friday (Partyin’).
We-we-we so excited
(Ni gara gara Kak Eeja post lagu RB)

Homagodz,I hate that song supermuch , like please just get out from my brain. Anyways, yesterday was Friday,Friday. Fun fun fun fun. Celebrated Sarah's long-due birthday, we were like what? A month late? Haha, well because everyone was too busy, but glad that we managed to squeeze some time to meet up yesteday.
Fun fun fun fun.
Sarah turned 21 today,we so excited fun fun fun. Sarah sekarang kau da sama umur dengan kitorang (eh tanak mengaku tahun ni dah 22)
Aten tak dapat join , we so sad sad sad sad. I hope she'll recover from time to time , really miss hanging out together.

I leb yu olsssss, my dysfunctional sisters<3

Ap to the Ril.

2011-04-01T09:18:00.002+08:00

First of all, it's Ap to the Ril !
IT'S APRIL and we have like what,a month to move out furniture in the house are still, untouched. Ok takda lah semua tapi banyak lagi.

So, you know alot been happening in March,where do I start then?
Went for few interviews and declined few jobs.Oh my Nazira,if you don't want it why did u apply at first place? ZZZZ.
Currently my job is 'research and write' from home. It's tiring sometimes, but hey money is not easy to get right. So far so good,will keep on doing this to get extra money in the future.

The latest interview I went was one of the scariest moment in my life. Hmm, I guess I will be entering working life in May hopefully nothing bad will happen,InsyAllah. Satisfied with the all the terms given and actually can't wait but I will wait..til then I have to write and write and write.

Anyways,I think my life plan will change again, for now I have to skip traveling, I am so sedih because tomorrow should be the day, and June is not possible. I mean job don't come easily right, itsokay maybe end of the year who knows but I still need to claim the reward from Abah, hahahahaha.

I hope everyone will have a good month then, and be awesome!

OH EXPLOSIONS IN THE SKY-FOO FIGHTERS = APRIL

Rope
Foo Fighters

Good Days.

2011-03-28T23:26:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday.
Happy Birthday.
Just Happy Birthday.

SS3SS3SS3SS3

2011-03-24T17:29:00.009+08:00

Last Saturday 19 MARCH 2011,marked as one of the best day in my life !
After I had to queue up for like what , 6 hours ? The craziest thing I ever did so far was lining up at Sungei Wang's parking lot for six freaking crazy hours just to buy the most freaking crazy expensive ticket price I had ever bought in my life.
I didnt know , Super Junior has this , crazy amount of fans , you know its like crazy man crazy !
The ticket price was expensive,you know like really expensive for a concert.Ok enough about that!
It was a self-reward for completion of my degree.
OKAY , back to the story , last Saturday I went to this k-pop concert with Bella,Sarah and her friend,Dina. AND again,we had to queue up for one hour,luckily it was not that long til we were allowed to come in and we alreadydecided not to come too early and it was raining too.YES!
Having to stand in the rockpit Pen B,pit 1 was such an awesome experience. The indoor stadium was hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and the best thing was , there were not many fans in our rockpitt so we kinda had the opportunity to run around freely whenever the boys moved around.
The stage was set around rockpitt areas.Stage dia yang merah tu.

OK anyway they came out on time , and hey it's SUPER JUNIOR , THE BOYS WERE TOO HANDSOME AND GOOD LOOKING,I didnt expect they will be too good looking !
So , you know , throughout the 3 hours me and bella couldn't stop screaming , we were screaming, screaming and yes screaming non stop.We were running around the rockpit area,macam
"NAZIRA TU DONGHAE!"
"ELLA EUNHYUK KAT SANA!!!!!KYUHYUN KAT SANA!SIWON BUKAK BAJU!"
"OMAI ELLA KACAKNYA HENSEMNYA ELLA KACAKNYA HENSEMNYA KACAKNYA"
"NAZIRA,HENSEM GILEEEEEEEEEEE SIUT KACAKNYAAA!"
so those were our dialogues,takda ayat lain itu je selama 3 jam.

But , I must say , it was one of the best thing ever happened in my life.I kinda forgot all of my problems because SUJU was there to entertain all of us,they were sincere in performing,tak kedekut lagu,very energetic,and they danced non stop.That was great.

So here are some of the pictures,you can view more on my FB

Comel kan haha.

AND YES YESUNG ! OMAI HENSEMNYAAAAAAAAA

Dekat dengan SIWON!!

Boyfriend loooooking hot ! Hensemnya homaigod faints lagi. Kenapa awak sungguh kacak wahai Eunhyuk da la terer gila menari.

Lebih best dari Katy Perry's Firework tak ? Haha

Sorry Sorry

Too hot to handle.

Besar tak besar tak ramai tak? ni baru belah kiri belum belah kanan.

Yes,we were that close!

WITH all of them!

Men in tuxedos? FAINTS

Ryeowook , Sungmin.

Main-main,tengok dressing diorang best tak awwwu hensemnya.

Beratur dalam hujan pon bolehhh.

Hihi!

BYEEEE!

BYEEE ! I LOVE YOU EUNHYUK BABYYYYY!

Boleh view lebih banyak gambar disini -> BONAMANANANA
&
My sister updated her blog pasal Michael Buble juga,KALAU ADA BANYAK DUIT DA LAMA PERGI JUGA TENGOK BUBLE DEMMMMN! ->KAK EEJA

Thoughts.

2011-03-23T13:16:00.003+08:00

Quotes taken from Twitter !

Anyways,just want to share (nothing personal)

#GoodRelationship = Commitment + Communication + Compromise

#Good-bye's make you think. They make you realize what you've had and what you've lost, and what you've taken for granted.

#Nothing hurts more then waiting since I don't even know what I'm waiting for anymore

#We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave. We have to admit that LOVE doesn't give us the license to own a person

#Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people to get them to notice you.

#Sometimes you just have to forget how you feel. And remember what you deserve...

#Never expect. Never assume. Never ask. And never demand. Just let it be. If it's meant to be, it will happen

#Sometimes it's easier to say you don't have feelings for someone, instead of explaining why you still do

#Sometimes, by holding on too tight, you end up losing what you were trying so hard to save

#Just because I pretend to be ok doesn't mean I'm not hurting sometimes

#If he misses you, he'll call. If he wants you, he'll say it. And if he cares, he'll show it. Be a smart girl!

#A relationship is like a job. You have to work hard to get in it and you have to work even harder to stay in it

#Sometimes it hurts to leave, but think about how much it hurts now to stay.

#Not all scars shows. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't really see the pain that someone else feels.

#Call me old fashioned, but I actually take relationships seriously.

#Sometimes God doesn't give what you want. Not because you don't Deserve it, but because you Deserve More!

Currently!

2011-03-23T02:22:00.003+08:00

Currently addicted to these songs ;

Super Junior - Monster

[Ryeowook] Eolmana jjitkyeoya hanyago
[Ryeowook] Gomineul hago weonmanghago
[Kyuhyun] Ppeonhan gyeolman kkeuti boyeodo
[Kyuhyun] Neol kkeunheul soo eobseo, soomswineun han neoreul gatgo shipeo

[Donghae] Neulsshihan geurimjareul ddara ga
[Yesung] Geowooreul boneun cheok hoomchyeo bwa
[Donghae] Ireon kkol wooseuweojyeo pogihalgga
[Yesung] Ireon gomin beolsseo myeot beonjjaeya

[All] Just like that japhijima nan wihomhae
[All] Just like that goolmjoorin yasoo boda deo
[All] Just like that oh hal soo eobshi nan
[All] Mog mareun, aetaneun, nooni meon babo ilppeun
[All] Eonje booteonjido molla
[All] Just like that nan sarojaphyeo beoryeosseo
[All] Just like that ohae ma neol bomyeon
[All] Mog mareun, aetaneun, nooni meon babo il ppeunya

[Yesung] Momboorimchigo wooreobwado
[Yesung] Weropgo dachin maeumeun apa
[Siwon] Noonbichi heundeullin geol bwasseo
[Siwon] Na ddaemooni aniran geot jjeumeun ara neul geuraesseo
[Leeteuk] Saebbalgan geu ipsoollo marhaebwa
[Leeteuk] Seonggashigo gwichanhdago marya
[Leeteuk] Ireon kkol wooseuweojyeo pogihalgga
[Leeteuk] Aireon gomin beolsseo myeot beonjjaeya

[All] Just like that japhijima nan wihomhae
[All] Just like that goolmjoorin yasoo boda deo
[All] Just like that oh hal soo eobshi nan
[All] Mog mareun, aetaneun, nooni meon babo ilppeun
[All] Eonje booteonjido molla
[All] Just like that nan sarojaphyeo beoryeosseo
[All] Just like that ohae ma neol bomyeon
[All] Mog mareun, aetaneun, nooni meon babo il ppeunya

[Ryeowook] Oneul bami jinamyeon
[All] Neol ijeul soo isseulgga
[Donghae] Moreugesseo nan
[Donghae] Ijen amoogeotdo,
[Donghae] Iggoshipeo da
[Donghae] Eolgoolmajeodo
[Kyuhyun] Oneul bami jinamyeon
[Kyuhyun] Neol jiwool soo isseulgga
[Donghae] Ige mweoji da?
[Donghae] Dwiseokkin gamjeong,
[Donghae] But just like that
[Donghae] Ddaragago isseo

[All] Just like that japhijima nan wihomhae
[All] Just like that goolmjoorin yasoo boda deo
[All] Just like that oh hal soo eobshi nan
[All] Mog mareun, aetaneun, nooni meon babo ilppeun
[All] Eonje booteonjido molla
[All] Just like that nan sarojaphyeo beoryeosseo
[All] Just like that ohae ma neol bomyeon
[All] Mog mareun, aetaneun, nooni meon babo il ppeunya

/////

how many times do i have to be torn.. i agonize over it and become resentful
even though i see the inescapable outcome.. i can’t give you up
i want only the breathing you

following the skinny shadow, i steal a glance pretending i’m looking in the mirror
this image becomes ridiculous.. maybe i should give up. how many times have i had this worry

just like that. don’t get caught, i’m dangerous
just like that. more than a starved beast
just like that. oh, i’m merely a hopeless, thirsty, anxious, blind fool
i don’t even know when it started
just like that. i was captured
just like that. don’t misunderstand.
when i see you, i’m merely a thirsty, anxious, blind fool

no matter how much i kick and scream and cry. my pained, lonely heart still hurts
i saw your eyes waver. i know that it’s not because of me. it’s always been like that

tell me with those red lips of yours. that it’s annoying
this image is becoming ridiculous. maybe i should give up. how many times have i had this worry

just like that. don’t get caught, i’m dangerous
just like that. more than a starved beast
just like that. oh, i’m merely a hopeless, thirsty, anxious, blind fool
i don’t even know when it started
just like that. i was captured
just like that. don’t misunderstand.
when i see you, i’m merely a thirsty, anxious, blind fool

when tonight passes, will i be able to forget you
i don’t know anything now.. i want to forget, even if i get hit in the face
when tonight passes, will i be able to erase you
what is all this? these mixed up feelings, but just like that i’m following you

just like that. don’t get caught, i’m dangerous
just like that. more than a starved beast
just like that. oh, i’m merely a hopeless, thirsty, anxious, blind fool
i don’t even know when it started
just like that. i was captured
just like that. don’t misunderstand.
when i see you, i’m merely a thirsty, anxious, blind fool

&&&&

Super Junior - Reset

[Kyuhyun] Neon ije jeongmal amureohji anhnyamyeonseo
Neon iddakeum byeol il anin deut naege mudji
Jeongmal naega amureohji anha boini? Geureoni?

[Donghae] Nan ajikdo neoreur bomyeon gaseumi apa
Keumsaerado nunmuri ssodajilga bwa
Aesseo nan babocheoreom utgo ittneun geol oreuni?

[Ryeowook] Ijen eotteohke neowa naega ([Yesung] Dashi yojeoncheoreom chinguil su ittni?)
Jeongmal geureol su ittni? Geureon geoni?

[All] Press the reset, press, press the reset
[Donghae] Nan neol neomaneul bogo ittneunde
[All] Press the reset, press, press the reset
[Siwon] Nan neol neoreul ijeul su eoptneun de
[All] Press the reset, press, press the reset
[Ryeowook] Nae ape seo ittneun neol eotteohke noheureneun geoni
[All] Press the reset, press, press the reset ([KRY] Reset, reset, reset)

[Rap/Eunhyuk] Geudaeyeo museun marirado haeyo geuriume gaseumsoki mieo geudaedo geureohdago tell me
Nae shimjangi meomchwobeoryeo sumi
[Rap/Shindong] Makhyeo nae sangcheoneun amurjiga anha
Oneuldo geudae eoptneun binjari guseokguseok gadeukhi nunmuri maejhyeo
[Rap/Eunhyuk] Hokshirado geudae geoki olkka nae saengak gakkeumina halkka gunggeumhae michil geot gata
Ireon nae mam geudaneun alkka saranghae saranghae yaksokhalke son ggwak japeunge
Mianhae mianhae dorawajwo Press the reset
[Yesung] Jeongmal urin jeongmal doragar su eopseungga geunar uri cheoeum majuchyeottdeon geunarro
Geunarro doragar sun eopseungga jebal o jebal

[Ryeowook] Eojjeomyeon hokshirado manyage neodo aesseo nareur wihae utgo ittdamyeon
[Kyuhyun] Jeongmal geureon georamyeon [Yesung] Ije dorawa

[All] Press the reset, press, press the reset
[Kangin] Nan neol neomaneul bogo ittneunde
[All]Press the reset, press, press the reset
[Leeteuk] Nan neol neoreul ijeul su eoptneun de
[All] Press the reset, press, press the reset
[Ryeowook] Nae ape seo ittneun neol eotteohke noheureneun geoni
[All] Press the reset, press, press the reset ([Kyuhyun/Ryeowook] Reset, reset, yeah~)

[Yesung] Charari naega ddeonaya halkka
[Ryeowook] Ije nohajuneun ge
[Kyuhyun] Nareur wihan ililgga hajiman
[Yesung] Nareur yongseohae geureol su eopseo
[Ryeowook] Nareur ijeun nu eopseo [Kyuhyun] Dorawa

[All] ([Kyuhyun] Oh~) Press the reset, ([Yesung] Yeah~] press, press the reset
[Donghae/Yesung] Nan neol neomaneul bogo ittneunde
[All] Press the reset, press, press the reset
[Sungmin]] Nan neol neoreul ijeul su eoptneun de
Press the reset, press, press the reset
[Ryeowook] Nae ape seo ittneun neol eotteohke noheureneun geoni
[All] Press the reset, press, press the reset ([KRY] Reset, reset, reset)

/////

you ask me if i really don’t feel anything or if nothing’s wrong from time to time
do i really look like nothing is wrong? do i?
even now, when i look at you my heart hurts..
even if it’s for a moment, i try hard not to let my tears fall
don’t you know that i’m smiling like a fool?
now how can you and i become friends like before?
can we really be like that? can we really?

press the reset, press press the reset
i’m looking at you.. only you
press the reset, press press the reset
you, i can’t forget you
press the reset, press press the reset
how am i to let go of the person who’s standing in front of me
press the reset, press press the reset

[Rap]

You… Please say something..
That your heart is aching with longing too, like me.. tell me
my heart stops.. i can’t breathe.. my wounds don’t heal
I patch up the empty holes you left with tears today too
by any chance, would you go there? think about me occasionally?
thinking this, i go crazy. do you know this heart of mine?
i love you i love you. i promise you.. i’ll hold your hand tight.
i’m sorry i’m sorry.. come back to me. press the reset

can we really not go back to how we were.. to the day when we first bumped into each other
i guess we can’t go back to that day.. please, oh please
possibly.. maybe.. if… you too are smiling for my sake
if it’s really like that, come back now

rather, should i leave first? is letting you go something i do for you?
but forgive me.. i can’t do it. i can’t forget you. Come back

will be updating suju pics,soon very soon!

Good times,good.Good.

2011-03-17T22:12:00.002+08:00

Actually I was digging up my old files in my long forgotten hard disk and found this survey . Its been awhile since I last do surveys like these.So highschool , so alpha . Haha.

Fact about the person you like.
Gong Chan ? Muahahahahaha.

Who’s the most annoying person in your neighborhood?
HANNA FATON.

Name some lyrics from the song you’re listening to now?
Taken from Meredith Bragg - My Absent Will "Da da dum,Da da dum,Da da dum.Be weary where we rest our heads,We never know just where they've been"

What are your plans tomorrow?
Tomorrow , I guess tomorrow is like Sunday as well ? No I'm not singing Rebecca Black here . To Ampang Park maybe?

Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
Well,thats life , people come people go. What do we do about that?

Where is your father?
Relaxing , while working , while watching the juke box.

Who were you last in a car with?
-

What time did you get up this morning and why?
7.00,somewhere there.

Have you ever been to New York City?
No.

Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
Sometimes.

Do you wear flip-flops during the winter?
Winter what winter?

Do people say you have pretty eyes?
I have sleazy eyes.

What's your favorite kind of chocolate?
White chocolate , any white chocolate .

Do you freak out if a bee/wasp flies near you?
No.

Is your crushes name found anywhere in your room?
Gong Chan? Oh he's everywhere hahahahaha.

If your friend is dating someone ugly, do you voice your opinion?
What is my right to do so ? Dont be too judgmental on unnecessary stuff.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a W?
-

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
-

What is the something you really want right now?
I want , my space. Eh myspace ke padahal zaman bila , ok bukan myspace myspace , ni my space.haha

Do you like being single?
I'm independent.

Do you like movie nights?
Movie nights ? I always watch movies alone , every night.

Okay, who was the last person who held your hand?
-

Do you dance in the car?
Ohmy , are you seriously asking that question ? Everytime lagu superjunior berkumandang dalam kereta k thanks.

Your longest friend, and how long?
MY DYSFUNCTIONAL SISTERS<3

What's your status on Facebook/MySpace say currently?
Hiatus.Eh ada ke.

What all has pissed you off today, if anything at all?
OH kereta di atas jalan raya selalu piss saya off.

When was the last time you couldn't stop laughing?
Two days ago , I was chatting with Haney . Non stop , for 4 straight hours talking about the same damn thing .

Which of your classes in school is most capable of killing a good mood for you?
I dont have anymore classes to go hahahahaha.

Can you honestly say that at this point and time your happy with the way things are going in your life?
Long sigh. Happy but not happy but happy but not.

Who was the last male you talked to on the phone?
My brothah.

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
Yes.

Are you mad at someone right now?
Yes.

Will you get married?
Entohler.

Do you prefer to call or text?
I dont like to use my handphone as a medium of communication . Ok jangan lempang , I like to text , call both but nowadays me and my friends we dont sms anymore yo , sms is like so highschool haha.

Do you have any siblings?
A sister , a brother , and a brother in law.

If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you?
GONG CHAN AWAK SUKA SAYA JUGA KE OMAIGOD.

You're thinking about someone, aren't you?
GONG CHAN BELUM BALIK KERJA.LAMBATNYA MESTI BANYAK KERJA.

Last awkward moment?
HAHAHA.Bunyi cengkerik on the move now.

How many pairs of sneakers do you own?
Why do you even need to ask that?

Your brother tells you he's in jail, what do you say?
He will never be in jail.

Do you get along with girls?
Yes , I love my dysfunctional sisters and my bebehs so much<3

Say your ex runs up to you and hugs you?
Tolong ada peraguttttttt.

Ex-highschool classmates , there were only 4 girls in our class . I hope all of them are coping up well with life , and no we are not the students of Pendidikan Khas.

And , my ex-classmates during foundation year . Some of them are , basically , m.i.a . Some of them graduated as well , and hopefully all of them are doing well too :)

And my degree year classmates , masa Gamma year , semua da pecah pecah , so ini lah classmates untuk dua tahun Gamma + Delta , great people . I will miss this the most .

On a Neck , On a Spit
Grizzly Bear